Saturday, October 30, 2010

Shopping Done

Its done!

All shopping for my Beijing trip is done.

I have my black beanie.

My black parka and gloves.

And a muffler that’s black, white and gray.

I am ready to face the cold of Beijing.

Now to figure out if I should get anything new for clubbing at Beijing.


Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Blackberry Playbook

I’m in love!

The Blackberry Playbook is calling to me.

Full computing power in a tablet format

1GHz dual-core processor


Symmetric multi-processing

Full Adobe Flash 10.1 enabled

Built-in support for HTML 5

I WANT!!!!

My birthday coming soon!

*wink wink hint hint*

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Goodbye East Malaysia

My boss told me recently that he will handle East Malaysia.

Sounds good to me coz I am kinda sick of flying around.

In KK, I love the food.

Really good food.

In Bintulu, everything is so laid back.

Probably because the trip is short, making the flying too frequent and near to each other.

The break will be good.

On the down side, I will also miss the food and hospitality of East Malaysians.

They are soooo friendly.

I will also miss the cheap ciggies.

Imagine RM4 for twenty sticks of ciggies.

That’s a savings of RM6 per pack.

Well, until my boss changes his plans again…. Gotta slow down on my smoking.



Damn technology!

It is suppose to make our lives more efficient but is it?

Something happens and I need to status update my myspace, facebook, twitter, BBM and my blog.

Internet down and nothing can be done.

How did we survive without internet?

On a positive note information is shared faster.

Also, I made some international friends.

Now to go update some fat mama jokes on twitter.


Tight Schedule Ahead

Next week is Diane's birthday bash.

In three weeks I will be going to Beijing.

After that, in December my gals will be paying me a visit.

Than its my 40th birthday.

Busy busy.....

Gonna be tough on my finances.

The price of living my life like there is no tomorrow.


Shit can hit the fan tomorrow, but I am having fun today!


Friday, October 22, 2010



Some say she is the female version of me.

I do agree that she is one of the very few who can shut me up.

I will not dwell on the part where we first got to know each other.

Just wanna say that I am happy that she is my sis.

Btw, though this is not her first flight on a plane, I still think she will still be like a monkey who just broke out of the zoo.


Jet Plane

Just came back from another trip that requires flying.

Some may say that I am blessed coz I fly around so much but trust me…. I prefer driving.

The thrill of flying is gone when you travel as much as I do.

I have been travelling to East Malaysia quiet often and the flight is around 2 to 3 hours.

Get in a plane, wait for the head count, wait for the food then off to sleep.

If I can sleep.

Or just listen to music on my BB waiting for the trip to be over.

Its boringgg!

Now my trip to Beijing requires 6 hours of flight time.


I know it helps that my baby is with me but…. Its not like we can romp in the plane. Hehehe…

Diane will be with us but seriously….. how much conversation can we have in the plane?

Maybe I should get travel scrabble or some kinda travelling board game.

6 hours stuck in a flying tin can be quiet unnerving.

I wanna sleep, but this being Diane’s first flight, she will probably be jumping around like a monkey on a weekend break from the zoo.


Well, at least I can look forward to freezing my balls off in the cold weather of Beijing.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Beijing.... Here I Come

Its final!

Just got the visas for the trip to Beijing.

Only thing left to do is to shop for the cold weather of Beijing.

Or might just shop in Beijing at the infamous Silk Street on the first day.

I think I will risk it and shop there.

Its cheaper and definitely make an adventure.

It’s a double first.

First time I will be touching and feeling snow.

First time I will be visiting a wonder of the world, the great wall of China.

Will also be checking out the Terracotta Army in Xian.

The trip will be both about historical sites and shopping.

The trip gets better when its with my sayang.

Everything is a lot more fun when she is around.

I love sharing new experiences with my baby.

Also coming along is one of my sis Diane (The only one who can shut me up).

She will add to the craziness of the trip.

Its 8 days 7 nights, she will be so sick of me at the end of the trip…. Hahahahahaha

Its too bad my other sis Alyssa cannot make it.

Maybe the next trip?

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Life Is Full Of Choices

I always say we have a choice.

No matter what circumstances that we find ourselves in, there are always options.

I really hate people who says “I don’t have a choice”

No such thing.

Stop bitching!

You had a choice but you choose not to choose.

You ignore the roads less taken.

Easier said than done?

Well, I now too have to make a choice.

I can choose to stay loyal or betray my principles.

I can choose to be loyal and stay in my comfort zone.

Or I can pursue other options and venture into the unknown.

I know lots of people will normally choose the comfort zone….. but I have never been normal.

But loyalty is one of my strongest traits.

Its not gonna be easy, but choose I will.

Screw loyalty if the one I pledge my loyalty to doesn’t give me the security that I need.

Gone are the days where I follow blindly.

I am too old for that shit now.

I am gonna be 40……


Yes, I guess I am changing with age.

Please smack me if I change too much.


Sunday, October 17, 2010

40th Birthday Presents

I am giving you guys a heads up on my birthday presents.

2 months for you to save up and get it. *wink*

Here goes:

Tag Hauer watch

Hummer H2

A Bungalow at Mutiara Damansara

An all expense paid trip to Europe for 2

A hot bi girl who is ready to play

The winning lottery ticket for RM15,000,000


Am I aiming for the stars?

Something more realistic?

Box set – Complete season of Charm, Angel or Buffy the Vampire Slayer

A damn cool metal bracelet (mine is broken *sob*)

A flat screen 51” TV

My perfect birthday?

Being with all my loved ones on that day, which includes my 2 girls that I miss very much.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

The Clock Ticks (Part 3)


There was a check list that I have for when I turn 40.

It was a long list. (Anyways I lost the list) LOL

I do know that I have achieved one important point in that list…. I am happily married.

Now for some points that I have failed.


Yes, I wanted to be a millionaire before I turn 40. I am a long way from that!

Still working my ass off for a living.


I want to retire early. I want to enjoy my freedom while I am still young. (Life starts at 40)

If I retire in the next few months, I am gonna be broke. Need a better financial plan.

Landed Property!

I wanted a big house with a spacious ground.

Now I am in a condo with no land.

I want cats and koi pond.

Still a goal.

2 more months before I reach 40.

What are the chances that I will achieve it in 2 months.


The Clock Ticks (Part 2)

Lets do it.

Next round of reflections…… relationships!

I have had lots of relationships since I had my first one when I was 14.

Its weird but I don’t think I was alone for more than a week since then.

There is always someone there for me.

I guess I am blessed but some will say I have issues of being single.

Here is another fun fact…. I have never dump a single girlfriend.

I am the one that gets dump all the time.

Sometimes I am hurt, sometimes I am relieved.

Anyways, I am very happy that I will be celebrating my 40th with the best relationship I ever have.

No pretending to be something I am not.

She doesn’t try to change me.

We go hunting together.

We do everything together.

Best ever!


Thursday, October 14, 2010

The Clock Ticks

I’m gonna hit 40 in a few months.

Need to reflect on some crap before my life begins. *wink*

I’m gonna start with people that I have cut outta my life.

Some will say I probably am selfish and is not understanding.

Well….. my time is limited, with my work and my alone time…. I don’t have time for people who are fakes.

Seriously, everyone claims that they are your best friend la, your true friend la but when the shit hits the fan, that’s when their true colour shows.

Whats a friend, someone who will have your back no matter what happens.

I have seen people who are only all talk.

They don’t walk the walk.

I am sorry…. I am sorry I don’t want you in my life anymore.

I am an ass but at least I honestly care for my friends.

I don’t pretend to be nice in front of you and be mean behind your back.

I am an ass in front and behind you.

Not much loss not having me in your life.

If you prefer to surround yourself with fake people, that’s your choice.

Just don’t come crying when you finally realised who your true friends are.

You had your chance, move on, learn from it and may you become a better person from it.

Yes, I know, I sound like an arrogant prick, but you knew that already.

Peace out!

Wednesday, October 13, 2010


I never thought that holding hands would ever be my thing.

Now…. In my hotel room alone…. I miss holding her hands.

Especially when I am falling asleep.

My ritual is to smell her skin and hug her.

And then if she is not yet asleep, our fingers will intervine while we fall off to sleep.

Its very intimate.

Falling asleep while holding each others hands is something you need to do to understand it.

A sense of security that she is there while you lose consciousness.

A feeling of being loved before drifting off to never never land.

A sense of comfort knowing you are not alone as you embark on a lonely journey.

Arggghh….. miss my beloved!

Another 24 hours before I can see her.

Miss my room.

Miss my bed.

Most of all…. Miss her beside me.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

WTF Moments

You are having dinner and notice a salesman going from table to table. You start thinking of excuses and ways to turn the guy down. As he approaches you, he ignores you and moves on to the next table. WTF!

You leave your hotel room and see a hot chick walking towards you in the hall way. You can see that she is smiling at you. As she gets within earshot, she looks you in the eyes and with a glowing smile says “You want massage sir?” WTF!

While waiting for your flight at the airport, you notice a cute girl who keeps smiling and looking at you. After a while, she sits closer to you and you notice that she is underage! WTF!

At the airport you notice a gal who has the face of an angel and the body of a slut. You watch when she stands up and goes to the ladies, as she plays with her long flowing hair, as she waits in the same as line as your flight. The Gods are smiling at you because she is sitting right next to you…. But someone else is already in your seat! WTF!

Your niece is all prim and proper when you speak to her. Then she started a Twitter account. You follow her and she is spouting all kinds of vulgarities in her tweets. WTF!

Your friend starts a MS account and asks that she be in your top friends. After a week of pestering you give in and put her profile in your top friends. A few days later she deletes her account. WTF!

A gal gives you her phone number in MS and asks to call her. You do. After flirting with her for half an hour, she says she is actually a guy. WTF!

A gal plays hard to get for a year. After a year of patience she says she is ready to come over to your place. Wooohoooo….. Then you realised that the date she gave is the same date that you will be out of town. WTF!

You never watch the speed limit. You speed whenever you are on the highway. On the day that you feel mellow and watch the speed limit, you get stopped by the cops for speeding! WTF!

Shopping for The Big Bandit

My good friend The Big Bandit asked me to get him some large T’s.

XXXXL to be exact.

In KK, there is a shop that specialize in big T’s.

While waiting for my room to be ready (I landed early in KK), I went shopping.

Got a few cartons of ciggies and went and look at some big T’s.

Bought two.

These are what they look like.

The Big Bandit only wanted black as its “flattering”…. Hahahahaha

The T’s are black with designs.

I only took the pictures of the designs as the Ts are huuuge!

Royalty Reigns

Devil Of Death

Hope he likes it.


Monday, October 11, 2010


Havent been hammered for a long time.

Normally I stay sober when clubbing coz I need to drive.

I didn’t plan to be hammered during the day for lunch.

Had the best Devil’s Curry at Diane’s place.

Then I started to drink.

Diane didn’t allow for my glass to be empty.

It keeps getting refilled.

Then Diane, her mum and her sister gang up on me and started to make me go bottoms up.

That’s when I got hammered.


Why not?

Havent been hammered for ages.

It was fun.


Friday, October 8, 2010


There is nothing worse than watching your love one hurting.

It is especially bad when there is nothing we can do.

We can only offer words of encouragement with the hope that they will feel better.

It normally doesn’t work.

We can only watch as they cry in dismay, seethe in anger or just go eerily quiet in disappointment.

We can only hope that they snap out of it fast.

We can only pray that they move on swiftly.

But until then, we feel helpless.

A helplessness that eats at your soul, wishing for super powers like time travel, mind control or whatever that can make things better.

I do not wish this on anyone….. even my worse enemies.

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Aim To Please?

Me: Nadya?

Her: She is like other normal kid

Her: Taking it easy

Her: Jaz is extra ordinary

Her: Always want to please

I should be proud but instead I am worried.

Its good that she has empathy but is it for real?

I worry that inside she is not happy pleasing others.

One day she will rebel, and a whole new extreme will come out.

Seen a lot of that in others.

I would rather she do what she prefers to do.

Not asking her to be selfish, but at least I know she is happy inside.

A father’s worry is never over.

Monday, October 4, 2010

Urgh..... Budget

Grrrr….. I hate budgeting.

I never need to do budgeting before because I was always broke.

There never was enough money.

Some will say that’s when you need to budget, but that’s easier said than done.

You cant budget when there is no money to budget.

You get paid at the end of the month and it will be gone before a month pass by.

But now that I have enough money I need to budget.

I am pissing my money away on food, clubbing and shopping.

I didn’t even realise I have money to throw until now.

I have money to save for holidays.

Its giving me a headache but its good headache.

Need to budget my money for Beijing.

Grrrr…. It’s a bloody headache!

Sunday, October 3, 2010


Just went shopping with my favourite ladies…. Yana, Alyssa and Diane.

A rose among the thorns.


Suppose to shop for the Beijing trip.

Saw pictures of Beijing in winter.

The locals are all wrapped up.


I guess we tropical people will be freezing!

So, need to get winter clothes.

Winter clothes are so gaudy.

Maybe it’s a Malaysian thing.

I saw something I like… a tanned leather jacket.

Everyone said I looked great in it.

I put it back coz I couldn’t afford it.


We didn’t buy anything.

Either its too expensive or its just plain ugly.

Need to go shop somewhere else.

Well, I love shopping, so not gonna complain