Wednesday, December 30, 2009

One More Day

Wow…. Time really flies.

Another day to a new year.

Year 2009……

Went to my first international vacation with my beloved.

Well, life with my beloved is always good.

Caught up with some old school mates. Yay!

Work could be better, still fighting for the targets.

This year I didn’t get to see my girls. Hopefully, its not the beginning of the end.

Good and bad for a year, whats new?

Anyways, I have travelled enough to know I am blessed.

When I miss my girls, I just think about the better education that they are getting.

Whenever my other half annoys me, I think about others who are still searching for love.

When I have money problems, I know I still own my own home.

When I cant eat out, I remember the hungry faces of children.

When I am tired, I am glad I still have all my physical attributes.

When my car’s aircond suddenly stops, I know my car will still get me to my destination.

Good and bad….. that’s what makes our life colourful.

I pray that the year 2010 will be more good than bad.

Work hard….. Play harder!

Time to play!


Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Sabah Hotel, Sandakan

Normally when I go to Sabah, I would be staying in a hotel in the middle of town.

I got to savour the malls, the street pedlars but never the scenic beauty of Sabah.

In Sandakan, I was staying at Sabah Hotel.

Its totally beautiful.

Its surrounded by forest.

The view is breath taking and the air…… *sigh*

The pictures don’t do it justice but here is a few.

Here is the aerial view of the hotel.

Aerial view of the pool.

Pool view from the top of the hotel.

View from my room.

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Bodyguards And Assassins

Normally I wouldn’t talk about a movie but this movie was exceptionally good.

Great actors with a great plot.

The build up was beautiful right up to the ending.

Though it starred Donnie Yuen (the Ip Man star) don’t expect the movie to be action packed.

There are some great fighting in there but the movie is a whole lot more than that.

It is one of the best movies that I have ever seen.

Watch it or you will never know the meaning of a beautifully crafted movie.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Roll Call Again

Christmas Update!

Linda, Dayana, Alena, Muliza, American Chick, Zuridah, Stephanie, Joyce, Shikin, Nadiah, Nicole, Yana, Zurina, Madeline, Pahang Gal, Sue, Dewi, Mie, Fizah, Siti, Bee, Lyana, Moon, Nurul, Beth, Sherry, Tina, Syezza, Filly, Fern, Maya, Yaya, Karen, Wan, Ziera

Friday, December 25, 2009

Merry Christmas!


The song is dedicated to everyone.

Is it getting better
Or do you feel the same
Will it make it easier on you now
You got someone to blame
You say...

One love
One life
When it's one need
In the night
One love
We get to share it
Leaves you baby if you
Don't care for it

Did I disappoint you
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without
Well it's...

Too late
To drag the past out into the light
We're one, but we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other

Have you come here for forgiveness
Have you come to raise the dead
Have you come here to play Jesus
To the lepers in your head

Did I ask too much
More than a lot
You gave me nothing
Now it's all I got
We're one
But we're not the same
Well we
Hurt each other
Then we do it again
You say

Love is a temple
Love a higher law
Love is a temple
Love the higher law
You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what you got
When all you got is hurt

One love
One blood
One life
You got to do what you should
One life
With each other
One life
But we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other



Monday, December 21, 2009

My First Time

Sorry to disappoint you but this is not about the lurid details of how I popped my cherry.

I just experienced my first drift event.

It was an eye opener.

Everytime I smell burning rubber I kept going through the wires to see if something is burning.

Jo had to remind me it’s the drifter’s tyres burning up the track.

I was at the booth most of the time as I was working.

Didn’t go near the track but the booth had an bird’s eye view of the Big Screen TV… that helped. LOL

Yana was going gaga over the show cars, me….. the show girls. (Umbrella girls, paddock queens, promoters, sales girls…..)

H asked me to do live updates, so I had a crash course on the logistics of live updates and some drifting terms.

When the weather is hot, its energy sapping, and when its raining, it pours like there is no tomorrow.

Overall, it was fun.

I had a great time.

Here are some sights for everyone to enjoy!

Tengku Djan winning the competition.

Federation D brings the beauties.

Beauties from a different angle.




Beauties and the Beast

Looking forward to the next event!

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Smoking Room

I have been in a lot of smoking rooms.

In Singapore, Thailand, Japan and all over Malaysia.

Normally it is the bare necessity.

Some is like an after thought with bad ventilation.

Changi’s “smoking room” is an open air garden.

Imagine my surprise when I entered Le Meridean, Kota Kinabalu’s smoking room.

It is very very nice!

It feels like a bar with a romantic ambiance.

Check it out!

Tuesday, December 8, 2009


I was reminiscing.

Not about love, but about life and how much things have changed.

I remember when there were only two channels on TV. TV1 and TV2.

Btw, it was black and white.

I remember playing Nintendo, Ping Pong. Just two lines hitting a ball at each other.

The telephone literally has a dial for dialling. The phone number was only 6 digits.

I can smoke in a bus as there was no air conditioned bus back then.

Also, I can smoke in an aeroplane.

Child hood past time consists of playing marbles, police and thief, tag, hopping, slippers, bottle caps and a whole lots of imaginary stuff.

Those were the days.

I guess I am feeling nostalgic coz my birthday is coming up.

Sheesh…. Thinking about it makes me feel old.

Well, at least I am still young at heart.


Saturday, December 5, 2009

Here We Go Again

I have been very busy.

Been travelling a lot.

Unfortunately, I am not travelling with my baby.

Next week I will be in Sabah for 5 days.

Its starting all over again.

The dread…..

The missing…..

Can never get use to it.

Even when I keep myself busy during the day, its never the same going to sleep alone.

Calls, sms, webcaming, chatting online….. nothing beats breathing her before I sleep.

Nothing beats holding her and kissing her good night.

This sucks……

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Good Bye!

My fault.

I cared.

I see a backdoor that wont close and I try to close it.

Why do I even bother?

Its coz I care.

Maybe I shouldn’t?

Seems the point of the back door is lost when the plumber, the carpenter, the locksmith and the whole damn world is at fault, so that we don’t have to talk about the backdoor.

The backdoor……………….

That is my only point.

I was thinking of shutting it, but you have your reasons.

My fault for actually believing you when you say no backdoor will be left open.

My fault for actually still giving a damn.

Why should I care when you obviously don’t?

Why should I close the backdoor when you obviously wanna leave it open?

I am no expert……. but I do know that more than 80% of failures are due to a backdoor.

I am no expert but I do know those who has no backdoor has a 99% success rate.

You say you wanna make it this time, but you refuse to acknowledge that your backdoor is open.

You say you wanna make it this time, but you refuse to close your back door.

You say you wanna make it this time, so you burn your bridges instead of closing the backdoor.


I too give up.

I will no longer speak my mind.

There will be no music to tango to.

There will be no bonfires to lit.

There will only be memories of what was and what could be.



Bon voyage

Good bye!

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Lets Tango!

Yes its true.

I am no expert on life.

Never claimed to be.

I am just an opinionated asshole bastard jerk who is in your face.

The thing is, I am only in your face if I believe you are someone worth my time or your action jeopardise the people I care about.

You know I care about you.

I warned you about playing with fire and you ramble on about living your life to the fullest.

Under any normal circumstances, I would just let it be……… maybe even proud.

But this is not normal.

This is your own choice.

You chose your own prison and to avoid fire at all cost.

Therefore your proud statement is contradicting to what you have planned.

I am always one who is supportive.

If you like to play with fire, lets make the fire bigger.

I’ll help you make the fire bigger.

No idea what I’m talking about?

Uuuuu….. the suspense…….

You know me.

I walk the talk.

If I say it, I’ll do it.

I hate people who is all talk but doesnt walk the walk.

You wanna live your life to the fullest by leaving bread crumbs, playing with fire, keep moving to keep your balance.

I’ll pave a road on your crumbs, light a bonfire and make sure you really move your ass.

Lets tango baby!

Friday, November 20, 2009

The Ugly Truth

Nope, this is not a movie review.

This is the UGLY TRUTH!

Ever wondered why single ladies have affairs with married men?

The key is the ring and the magical line…. “I’ll leave my wife for you”

I have no idea why does a ring on a guy make him more desirable.

Is it the prospect that he can and will settle down?

And to think that he will leave the mother of his kids for you makes it a feather in your cap?

First off….. if he can leave his wife for you, he can definitely leave you for another.

Lets see…. You are special and is his soul mate, you are not the same.

That’s just your ego hunn.

You are just a feather in his cap.

He will change to a younger model when the opportunity arises.

But most important of all….. HE WILL NEVER LEAVE HIS WIFE!

99 out of 100 just says it but will never do it!

You say he is the 100th one?

Again, just your ego hunn.

Wake up and smell the coffee.

What are you to him?

Scandal, girlfriend or mistress?

Excuses given…… “Now is not the right time”, “The kids are still young”, “She is pregnant”, “She is emotionally unstable”….. the list goes on.








Thursday, November 19, 2009

What Are You?

Are you a drama queen?

Attention seeker?


You told the best management team who wanted to help you to shut the fuck up!

You perpetuate a relationship that has no future.

You choose a road that everyone stays away from.

You take action with no regard for the people who cares and love you.

You give excuses for your dilemma.

You ostracise those that wants to help you.

You seek advice and disregard them.

You want out but you keep staying in.

You want change but you refuse to change.

You show courage but choose to take the easy route.

You know what is right but continue to do wrong.

I can picture you saying that magical mantra……. “I have no choice”.

Life is full of choices.

We choose to breathe.

We choose who we are with.

We choose to be happy.

What did you choose?

Monday, November 16, 2009

Walking Down Memory Lane

Was clearing my handphone and came across this pic.

Banana split with tons of cherry on top.

For those who doesn’t know, I love banana split.

I am not into ice cream but I do love banana split very much.

The thing is….. I never liked the cherry.

I don’t mind popping a cherry but not gonna put one in my mouth. LOL

The pic shows my friend taking the cherries from Yana and myself and putting it on her banana split.

Those were the good times when we were travelling together.

Miss those days.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Anger Management?


Someone just suggested that I need to go for anger management.

There is too much anger in my posts.

Seems reading my blog reflects that I am angry a lot.

An interesting observation.

But the strange thing is that I only get angry when it affects my loved ones.

Say what you want to me, do what you want to me, I am extremely patient.

But when a loved one is hurt…… I get very angry.

I fly off the handle when someone I care for is crying.

Whatever hurt or anger that one is going thru is amplified on me.

You don’t want me to get emotional?

Tough luck coz I care for you!

Saturday, November 7, 2009


Family….. wat is family?

Just because we share the same bloodlines that makes us family?

Just because we share the same father or mother that makes us family?

Just because we share the same child that makes us family?

That just makes us genetically connected but it means shit if you dun act like family.

Hard love?

Hard love means doing something unpopular for the good of a loved one.

Not shoving a loved one in harms way just to prove a point.

How about when there is no point to prove but doing something for selfish reasons?

That’s even worse.

Dogs behave better than that, but I will not insult the dog by comparing you to a dog.

Family is sticking together through thick and thin.

Family is supporting a loved one even when they make an obvious mistake.

Family is giving advice but not shoving your ideals on to others.

Family is loving, caring, sharing, helping and supporting one another no matter what.

I have friends that I call family.

I have colleagues that I call family.

I am lucky to have a family that behaves like a family.

If you cant act like family just shut the fuck up and get out of the way.

Nobody asked for your advice.

Nobody asked you to save the day.

Nobody asked you to make a list.

Just go fuck yourself and die!

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Mix Start

It’s a mix start to the new month.

I went clubbing at Bar Savanth Too on Halloween’s night.

The Big Band was performing and I noticed that the lead vocals looked very familiar.

I waited for the set to end and approached him.

He recognised me, called me by a name that I haven’t heard in more than a decade.

He is Gareth Cheow, my ex school mate.

We have known each since 8 years old.

We smoked, chilled and just spoke about everything and nothing.

Most interesting is that he has started a group for ex Johanians for year 1988.

Very cool, time to find long lost friends.

That’s always fun.

Today is not a good day for me.

Today, I lose a colleague and a dear friend.

Today I have to watch someone very close to me make a very difficult decision.

A decision that will forever change the course of her life.

A decision that effects everyone that love and cares for her.

A decision that brought tears to those that hears it.

It was a decision that I hope will bring joy and happiness, but the vibes I get is dread and fear.


She is a big girl and should know what she is doing.

I just hope that I am wrong.

I don’t like to be wrong, but I pray to God that I am wrong in this instance.

So, old friends found and old friend lost.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Quis ut Deus

It is both an oxymoron and an irony.

We are made in his image, and yet for all our Godly qualities, we can behave like the Devil himself.

I am a father of two.

I have felt the blessings of seeing my own flesh and blood growing, and have also felt the pain of losing my own flesh and blood.

It is even worse when the lost is due to my own actions.

The power to give life and take away.

I have experienced both.

I can be God like, but I would rather be a mere mortal just to be able to hold my babies in my arms again.

Quis ut Deus, a constant reminder of ones abilities to do good, but beware of the power to create destruction.

No good without evil.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Checklist: Places To Visit

After going to China, I thirst to travel more.

Too bad I didn’t get to see the Great Wall of China.

Here is the list of some of the wonders of the world that I want to visit before I…….

Great Wall of China

Coliseum in Rome

The Grand Canyon in US

Pyramids in Egypt

Angkor Wat in Myanmar

Leaning Tower of Pisa in Italy

Mayan Pyramid in Mexico

These are my seven wonders that I must see.

More From China

Here is another pic of Michael. He blows the bugle as a beacon when someone is missing.

A beautiful gazebo in the middle of a bustling city.

Two beautiful gir… opps I mean two nice looking guys.

A cabbage made entirely from jade, a single stone. Its bigger than a cat. Its huge.

The sign says “Do Not Step On Grass”

Taken from the top of the temple. Batu Caves is nothing compared to the stairs I had to take to get up there. The stairs you see is not even half that I had to climb.

A beautiful pagoda that is from the side of a stone cliff.

Nanjing Road. A tourist attraction and a shopping paradise. If you want bargains, go into the alleys but be prepared to fight your way out. Not for the meek.

I went online in my room’s computer. Hehehe….

Friday, October 23, 2009


China trip was great.

The weather, the food…… and of course, the shopping!

Stuff there is really, really cheap.

Wish I have more money.

I got like 300 over pics and there is no way I will upload everything.

So just gonna share some of my fav ones.

My zany tour guide, Micheal. He is funny and abit crazy. Saw a group of westerners and he said Bonjour, and when he didn’t get a respond, he said they are not French and when he said Namaste to a dude that looks Indian and was ignored, he told us the dude is probably deaf. Our tour guide made our trip more memorable.

The whole gang. From left, Yana, myself, Danny, Maggie, Lily, Benny, Lily, Daniel, Ben, H, Kak Ros and hubby, Uncle Ong, Kelvin and Kama. All with their weird personalities.

A very beautiful hanging pedestrian bridge. Why cant Malaysia come up with something so practical and beautiful?

This is not a temple, but is actually part of a shopping haven called Old Shanghai. Very nice!

Its not the grim reaper. Just me scaring the locals with my hood.

Went to the place called Xin Chang where epic Chinese movies are made. The place is really beautiful and picturesque.

This a saleslady explaining how strong Chinese silk is and showing how it cannot be torn.When she asked me and Daniel to pull at it to prove her point….. I TORE IT! Hahahahaha… she doesn’t know my strength.

Here is me looking down on Shanghai from the 94th floor of Shanghai’s tallest building. Yes, I conquered my fears for a minute to take that pic.

Its cool during the day but night time is cold.

Stop bugging me…. I’m tired from walking the whole day.

Will definitely go back.

So much more to buy, and so much more to see!