Indonesia

Initially the plan was to go to Batam next month (work purposes) but the plan might be changed.

We are getting feedback there are currently distributors from Medan, Surabaya, Jakarta....

Might have to go to all these places.

H said I should become the country manager for Indonesia.

I am flattered but I think I will think about it when the market there is stable.

Now I just want to concentrate on developing the market.

A new market.

A new adventure.

*wink*

Still Talking About That Fellow Ah?

Someone came to me and told me not to be sad.

I have done everything that can be done

Its no longer my fault.

Though I wont disagree with her, I still feel sad.

Losing a "family" is never easy.

Losing a family in a bad way is even worse.

Not that he did anything to make things easier.

Even with him gone, his "presence" is still felt.

Quotations not confirmed, reservations not made.

Sheesh.... he really went out of his way to screw himself.

Now everybody has more reasons to say he deserves what he got.

I have left lots of organizations and I always try my best to leave in the best of light.

I dont understand why would anyone purposely tarnish their own reputation just to score a few minutes of "doing my own thing" time.

Is that how they want to be remembered?

*sigh*

I guess it takes all kinds.

Maybe I am being idealistic in thinking that by being a big brother, some of my work ethics would rub off on him.

I guess I was wrong.

Thus the dissapointment and being sad.

Yes, I am no longer angry, I have moved on.

But I still think of him.

I will not apologise for the harsh words said, or to say that its water under the bridge.

I just hope that he learns fast and not come to his senses when its already too late.

He has lots of potential but he needs to find himself before he gets totally lost.

I am sad because I am not a "fridge".

I have feelings.

I get disappointed, then angry... finally sad.

Losing a bro is always hard.

Misunderstood

Am I bad tempered?

I guess you can say I am.

But the thing is I seldom lose my temper.

Am I judgemental?

Of course I am!

At least I admit I am rather than pretending to be all nice but is a back stabber.

But I never get angry when others do not adhere to my ideas or principles.

I am opiniated and loud.

But I dont force my values on others.

To everyone their own.

Just dont "menyusahkan" others.

You make your own bed, you sleep in it.

I usually fly off the handle when others are dragged into your problems due to your own stupidity.

You dig your own grave, please dont pull others into it.

So, please understand that as long as you kill yourself, hurt yourself, bury your ownself, I only feel sad and dissaponited but I will not get angry.

But when your moronic actions create problems for others around you, thats when you will see the ugly side of me.

I am protective over the people that I care about.

If I care about you of course I will want to help you.

If you turn down my help, I wont be offended.

If you turn a deaf ear to me, I wont be angry.

No forgiveness required as I still care.

But when you knowingly hurt the people I care about, allowing your moronic principles to create headaches for those around you, believing in only saving your own ass thus making others look stupid..... I just cut you off.

I used to believe in getting even... now I just believe you are not worth my brain cells.

There are more important people that I care about.

People who deserves my time and attention.

I am moving on.... but of course I need to express myself before moving on.

Thus the angry rantings.

Hehehe.... I've moved on.

*wink*

I Am Pissed!

I am pissed, disappointed and bewilded!

What the fuck is wrong with him!

Those who know me know that I place brotherhood as a very important aspect of my life.

To trust and to be trusted.

To believe that we watch each others back at all times.

I have always practiced that where ever I am, especially so when I have a team.

I treat my team like family.

Halim, in VADS, you were my colleague first, then join my team and became a "brother".

When I left VADS to join PACNET, it was with a heavy heart when I had to leave behind my family... Kak Ju, William, Diane and of course Halim.

In PACNET, I was feeling lonely as I couldnt find a family there, prompting me to look as else where.

Joining NANANG, starting a new team, I brought you in because I know it was an opportunity for you to prove yourself.

Opportunity that very few ever get in their lifes.

An opportunity to better yourself and make a name for yourself.

I know you were having problems with the new responsibilities and was screwing up.

Ben and myself discussed ways to help you, trying to find your strength to allow you to get better.

Still you screwed up.

I didnt know what to do but Ben is still trying.

And what the FUCK did you do!

You made a mistake, didnt tell anyone, stand by the sidelines while your bosses tried to fight a battle not knowing that the person we were attacking was innocent.

Then, you just kept your FUCKING mouth shut while your friend Sita took the whole blame.

You allowed your bosses who cares about you look like fools.

You allowed your brother to make a fool of himself.

You allowed Sita (who helped you financially even though she has problems of her own) to take the rap for your mistake.

How the FUCK do you sleep at night?

I dont mind teaching you when you were screwing up.

I dont mind helping when you had problems.

But what kind of FUCKING attitude it is to see everyone who cares about you taking a fall for your incompetence.

You just wanted to save your own ass.

Did you not see me in VADS taking responsibilities for others mistakes?

I did it because I was the team leader.

I did it because I knew exactly who did what!

But you kept silent, not telling anyone, not even owning up to your own mistake.

The worse is misleading the bosses that the mistake was done by other person.

It pisses me off that I trusted you and was trying to help you.

Is this the gratitude that Ben, Sita and myself deserve?

One last advice before I cut you out of my life (believe me I would prefer to cut more than that)

You will fail in what you do.

You will be called a loser.

You will be a nobody.

And this is not because there is somebody out there who is out to get you.

It is because you have the attitude of a FUCKED UP, UNGRATEFUL SON OF A BITCH!

Goodnight and good riddance!

Fishtankers

The fish tankers.....

We are called that coz our office is in the middle of the call centre and it is surrounded by glass like an aquarium, thus the name fish tank.

The six of us were very close.

Standing from left.

Fiza. A quiet one who at times can spew out lava that can burn you right thru the heart.

Dinesh. My bro. Someone that I can trust my life with. A great friend who is there for me when I need his help.

Q. The emo one. Another friend that I am proud to call bro. An interesting individual who I know I can rely on.

Sitted from left.

Diane. OMG! A female version of me. Hahahaha.... Love her to bits! Beware dudes who hurt her.

Mala @ Allyssa. What can I say? Cant live with her, cant live without her. Has the ability to annoy me all the time but I have no choice but to bear with it. She is a great friend and my sis. =P

Miss the gang.

Miss our adventures.

Miss our fights with management.

Miss our crazy moments together.

Missing The Good Ole Days

Semangat Yang Hilang - XPDC

Jika engkau seorang
Juang hingga titisan
Rempuh tak berharapan

Nanti aku disana
Diufuk pemikiran
Lalu menghayatinya

Di dalam kubur manapun
Jasad aku ditanam
Aku akulah jua
Kita laksanakan
Mati hati yang damai
Disana kejujuran

Semarak impian
Segunung harap dujulang
Usah diragukan
Keupayaan diri

Api yang membara
Mengikutkan kata apa
Jawapannya disini
Semangat kita hilang

Semangat yang hilang
Kita cari pulang

na...na...na...na..na
na...na...na..na..na


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Miss the gang in the fish tank.

Song dedicated to my bro.

Miss you guys!

Weird.....

Here is something to think about.




Mel & Kurier?

Isnt that a direct usage of "Mail & Courier"?

Shouldnt it be Surat & Penghantaran?

And to think that this is found at LCCT where thousands of people can see it.

Its kinda embarassing to think that we dont even know our own language.

Whats the point on harping on the pride of our national language when we have our own postal service screwing it up publicly for all to see.

Here is another strange item.



Root beer from Gardenia.

Found it in Kota Kinabalu.

Gardenia diversifing?