Down.....

I told myself that nothing will get me down this month.

Hence the incessant blogging from the first day.

Unfortunately I am down.

As I sit in my office looking at everything before me….. I feel helpless.

I see my workmates going about their business, my beloved popping her head in to ask something, my boss doing what he normally does…. And suddenly I feel….. helpless.

I suddenly realise how much I am not in control.

I pride myself in the fact that I cannot control anything but myself.

But now I feel helpless.

Downright crest fallen.

Hate the feeling of futility.

I know I will get over it.

I know there are so many things that I can look forward to.

But for now, I have an uncontrollable urge to dwell in misery.

I hate this feeling……….