The Irony

Father’s day is in June.

Never really realised it.

The irony of it.

God has a real sense of humor.

LOL

Another challenge for the month of June.

Fine…. Whats one more?

I’ll take the challenge.

Whats new?

At least I know God is paying attention. *wink*

Yup, my glass is definitely half full.

Happy Birthday Nadya

Happy Birthday To You

Happy Birthday To You

Happy Birthday To Nadya

Happy Birthday To You

May your days be always bright and your nights always loved.

I love you and will always be here for you.

Its So Hard To Say Goodbye To Yesterday

The past shapes our present and helps create our future.

The past should remain in the past but the past has a strange way of rearing its head in the present.

People we havent seen for a decade are met, incidents that are buried starts resurfacing, sins that are forgotten bites you in the ass!

I would say move on but that’s always easier said than done.

Should memories be just memories, or are they real?

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How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh
Outweigh the bad.

I thought wed get to see forever
But forevers gone away
Its so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

I dont know where this road
Is going to lead
All I know is where weve been
And what weve been through.

If we get to see tomorrow
I hope its worth all the wait
Its so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

And Ill take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
Its so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

And Ill take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
Its so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.


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Lets just live for the moment, don’t think about the past or worry about the future.

About Time... Roll Call Update

Linda, Dayana, Alena, Muliza, American Chick, Zuridah, Stephanie, Joyce, Shikin, Nadiah, Nicole, Yana, Zurina, Madeline, Pahang Gal, Sue, Dewi, Mie, Fizah, Siti, Bee, Lyana, Moon, Nurul, Beth, Sherry, Tina, Syezza, Filly, Fern, Maya, Yaya

Wow.....

Nearly 1 year since the last update.

Its Here Again

Its that time of year.

Hello June.

June used to be such a special month for me……

Now it only brings sadness.

Its not easy seeing another year has passed, and knowing that so much has happened with me not being there.

It’s a burden that I cannot share with anyone.

I still show my jovial side, for my sadness is mine alone.

I ask not for understanding but solitude.

Allow me to bear the sins of my past.

Of course I might over compensate with sillier jokes, more perverse than usual, working longer hours, a lot more crazier and just downright not serious in matters of the heart.

That’s how I handle my misery.

Open up?

Whats the point?

Talking about it doesn’t make me feel better, only makes me see how pointless or useless the situation I am in.

I am not in the mood to feel inadequate.

I am not in the mood to satisfy your need to mother me.

I am not in the mood to quench your thirst for sharing.

I am who I am.

If it were to fester in me and kills me slowly, so be it.

I need to be uplifted.

I want to be entertained.

I just want to get by June with the minimal of damage.

It hurts whenever I think about it.

I just want to move on, but June will never allow me that.

It’s a grim reminder of what could have been.

A reminder that I made my bed and now I must sleep in it.

No regrets, just mind numbing pain.

And I handle pain by laughing.

When I stop laughing the pain begins.

I need to laugh, I must laugh.

June is 30 days of laughter for me.

Hahahahahahaahahahahahaha……..

Sad But True

It’s a sad day when being nice can get you in trouble.

The other day at the airport, an elderly lady asked if I can help her.

She has checked in her luggage but she has an extra hand luggage that she forgot to check it in and is asking if I can carry it for her.

I just said no and walked away.

Some might see it as cold and unfeeling but helping her might get me hanged.

That’s how unsuspecting mules are made.

You helped someone out and next thing you know, you have drugs found on you.

Maybe she was genuine, but do you want to take the risk?

Not me, I value my freedom too much.

So, the next time you are at the airport, be careful who’s luggage you are carrying.

It could be your last.

RIZAL 101

Nope…. I am not gonna lay on a couch and tell you about my relationship with my mother.

Its more like getting to know me better at work.

The boss is only as good as his team.

Yup, if the team suck, I suck too! (Sound so wrong. LOL)

But that’s what I believe in.

I need my team to be able to make decisions in all kinds of different situations.

Flexible but also firm. (Yummy! *wink*)

Anyways I am sure everyone has heard of the saying “If I catch you a fish, you will eat fish for a day, If I teach you how to fish, you can eat fish forever”.

Therefore I tend not to make decisions for my team.

I prefer them to look at a situation, make a decision and justify it.

There has been many instances that I do not agree with some decisions made by other HODs but I go along with it after voicing my objection.

This is called agreeing to disagree.

Not everyone will have the same principles or the same thoughts.

Versatility makes us colourful and interesting.

The thing is….. Normally, most of the time, people wants you to agree with them.

And when you don’t, they will try their best to persuade you to agree.

Why cant we agree to disagree?

*sigh*

Anyways, here is the thing……

You have made up your mind on what you want to do, but it made you feel guilty as it would mean letting your friend down.

So, you tried to tell me your problem and hopefully I would make that decision for you.

Actually I already can see that you have made up your mind.

You need not justify to me your reasons, you just need to stand your ground.

But instead you start telling me how it would affect you.

Keep in mind, I am a problem solver.

You throw a reason at me, I just knock it out of the ball park.

You just needed to say that your family is your priority and you needed the time off.

I wouldn’t have been able to knock that one down.

So, you get frustrated because I do not see things your way.

And finally, you found a HOD who gave you your solution.

Aiyoo… that solution has always been in you.

Why do you need someone else to make it for you?

It was a test for you because when in management, we need to stand our ground when making decisions.

You failed my dear.

It was not a total loss.

At least now I know you better.

Being in management means that you will have to make hard and unpopular decisions.

Being in a position of responsibility means that you need to upgrade and train your team.

Being in a position of power means that you need to see the big picture.

Each action has a reaction.

You are one of the nicest person that I have ever met.

But you need to learn to stand your ground.

Always remember, one good strong reason to justify your action is better than 10 lame excuses.

Until the next time we have a debate….. lets agree to disagree. *wink*