Dragonos el Malo

Accepted and Delivered!

2012-02-10T01:31:00.003+08:00

I did it!

I delivered my presentation in Cantonese.

It was a 4 hour presentation which I did alone without any help.

I was suppose to get help from another trainer but that guy was not prepared and I was on a roll!

Is it narcissistic for me to say that I am good?

LOL!

Anyways, everyone had a good time and I reached my objective.

Now looking forward to more Chinese presentation.

Hehehe....

Challenge Accepted!

2012-02-08T22:55:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is gonna be a true challenge for me.

For those who doesnt know, I am a Master Trainer that focuses on training in Indonesia.

I frequently go to Indonesia on weekends to conduct training.

H has informed me that I only do training in Indonesia and to ignore marketing and Malaysia.

He will hire a local trainer that can speak and train in Chinese.

Guess what, business picked up and I need to train tomorrow.

In Chinese!!!!

I am suppose to be supported by another trainer but that guy is not prepared and has just confirmed that he will be late.

The pressure is on me.

I am stressed out!!!

Wish me luck!

Smile?

2012-02-07T21:41:00.003+08:00

Smile!!!

Thats what my baby likes to tell me.

Everytime I dont smile I look too serious.

Intimidating everyone around me.

Not my fault I am born with a fierce look.

I do not smile for no reason.

Currently there are a lot of reasons for me to NOT smile.

But I will smile when I smile.

My glass is half full.

There is hope.

I will smile!

Clubbing

2012-02-07T21:27:00.002+08:00

Went clubbing last night.

Yes, I still club.

Been going to Gosh! whenever I get the chance.

Not as often as my baby, coz I am normally tired from work.

My usual gang, Diane, Jess and of course my baby.

I enter a club, grab a drink and sit back and take in the whole scene.

I love watching people.

No, no, no..... I am not just checking out the hot chicks, but I observe everyone.

Of course hot chicks get more of my attention *wink*

I only dance when I am buzzed.

If I am tired of the club scene I would follow The Big Band around like a teenage hormone charged groupie! LOL!

The band leader is my childhood friend and they play songs that I like.

For now, I am into the Gosh! scene.

It helps that I love watching my baby in "action".

*wink*

Back To The Mechanic!

2012-02-06T21:11:00.002+08:00

The car during the weekend gave off a slight burning smell from under the hood.

Went to the mechanic with a sense of dread.

Well, the mechanic only took a minute of looking under the hood to notice there is oil leak.

The carburetor casing has cracked!!!

Argh!!!!!

On a positive note, the car is usable.

I just need to top up the engine oil all the time.

The mechanic will let me know the cost tomorrow.

The end of the month is not even near and I know I will be spending on the car......

Grrrrr.......

At least I have a job.

Think positive, think positive........

Filling In The Blanks: CNY

2012-02-05T23:24:00.002+08:00

I am sooooo looking forward to the year of the dragon.

Not that I am superstitious but I have been told my luck will be better when the dragon year arrives.

With all the crap that has happened, how can I not be hopeful?

A few days before CNY, my mom needed to go for a back bone surgery.

She came out fine but she cant stand or sit for long duration.

That means no CNY cooking from her.

Its not the same without her cooking.

Gave me a glimpse of what CNY will be like when she is no longer around.

I dont like what I see.

I told myself when my finances are better, I will learn to cook from her.

Why not now?

Coz I am broke, and I would need to buy the raw ingredients to cook with.

Its not cheap.

Anyways, she cant teach yet.

Gotta wait for her to get back on her feet first.

Hence I only spend two days to celebrate CNY.

I promise I will cook like her (CNY dish) before the end of the year!

Filling In The Blanks: Birthday

2012-02-05T23:20:00.002+08:00

Bless my darling's heart.

She wanted to throw a party to celebrate my birthday.

I told her no.

Financially we cant afford it.

I dont need to celebrate every birthday.

It didnt help that I am still guilty for not celebrating her birthday.

Just knowing that she is always by my side is good enough for me.

Knowing that she loves me is a present that keeps giving.

I love you baby!

Filling In The Blanks: New Years

2012-02-05T23:17:00.002+08:00

I started the New Years at home.

Had close friends come over and it was a simple affair.

Thank you Mei Lyn, Diane and Alyssa for coming over.

Its nice to know that during hard times, friends are always there for you.

Filling In The Blanks

2012-02-05T23:15:00.002+08:00

I will be posting under the same title for a few times.

This is because there is so much that needs to be updated.

I need to do this to remind myself what has happened.

My bad for not blogging consistently.

Memories..... I need them.

I Am Back!

2012-02-05T23:07:00.005+08:00

Its been months since I last posted.

In a nutshell, my car has been draining me financially every freaking month.

The worse was when my car broke down on the highway when I was going to Johor.

The workshop screwed up my car and I had to pay 4K for it.

I didn’t have a choice. I was at their mercy.

In the last few months, I had to change the ac compressor, gear box, fuel pump, power window, top over haul, water pump and other small stuff.

I had to take the public transport for nearly a month because I ran out of money to fix my car.

On the professional front, I went back to work with H.

I love working with H, and it was an easy decision because my previous GM was a moron who loves playing politics.

I am now a Master Trainer in Nanang International and goes to Indonesia almost every weekend.

More news on Indonesia later.

Personally, I am lucky to have a partner who has been very supportive when I was down financially.

My mom went for a surgery a few days before CNY, causing CNY celebrations to be a sombre affair.

I am still financially screwed, but things will get better with Nanang.

Just need to tough it out for the next few months.

I have been tweeting loads instead of blogging, but I need to blog again.

I am back, better, stronger and more focused!

A Day Out

2011-09-02T23:50:00.002+08:00

I had a day out with the girls.

It was fun.

Met them in Melaka and they wanted to watch Final Destination 5.

Too bad they were denied tickets because they were not old enough.

Was forced to watch Smurfs.

Luckily the movie was entertaining without being too childish.

Played some arcade games and had a heart to heart talk with them.

A great day to remember by.

Will miss them till I see them again.

Btw, made them promise me to stay in contact at least once a week.

I hope that works.

At Last

2011-08-15T15:04:00.002+08:00

Yup.....

Its final, I was offered a job

No more unofficial crap that gets me screwed over

Its a listed company with strong financial resources

Will be starting after Raya

Now I can sleep better

*wink*

sigh

2011-07-31T21:56:00.001+08:00

Its the end of the month.

Nothing has changed.

Same old same old.

My financial situation is still in tatters.

Ramadhan starts tomorrow.

Hopefully things will be better.

Year 2011 really sucks!

New Babies

2011-06-18T20:43:00.003+08:00

Kittens!!!!

Got myself a pair of kittens.

The one on the left is all black with a white spot on its lower neck.

Named it Loki coz its always up to some mischief.

The one on the right is dark grey with stripes on its legs and belly.

Reminds me of a Tazmanian Devil.

Its extremely hyper and likes to jump all over the place.

Named it Tazzy.

*wink*

I'm Back

2011-06-18T20:39:00.002+08:00

I didn’t blog in May coz a lot has happened.

Unfortunately, not good things.

Promises made were not kept and I got screwed over again.

Financially screwed over.

The worst kind.

On other fronts, everything is great.

Stressing on finances has kept me busy for the past one and a half months.

In a nutshell, I am gonna be looking for a job again.

Well, having a half year vacation should be enough.

LOL

Roll Call

2011-04-22T15:00:00.001+08:00

Here we go again......

Linda, Dayana, Alena, Muliza, American Chick, Zuridah, Stephanie, Joyce, Shikin, Nadiah, Nicole, Yana, Zurina, Madeline, Pahang Gal, Sue, Dewi, Mie, Fizah, Siti, Bee, Lyana, Moon, Nurul, Beth, Sherry, Tina, Syezza, Filly, Fern, Maya, Yaya, Karen, Wan, Ziera, Waeda, Bella, Diera

Time to walk the talk!

2011-04-22T14:52:00.003+08:00

Month of April is a decisive month.

I have decided to NOT work!!!!

Gonna build my own network and make my own money.

I have been training others how to build their network and make their money.

Time to stop teaching and start doing.

Time to walk the talk!

Car Situation

2011-03-25T11:52:00.002+08:00

Bought the wrong battery - RM299.00

Fried the car's circuits and had to be towed - RM140.00

Replacing circuit board at workshop - RM375.00

Learning how to identify the right battery - PRICELESS!!!

Square One

2011-03-23T15:41:00.004+08:00

Its like I just hit the reboot button.

Everything back to nothing.

I have officially cut off all ties with my previous employer.

Liquidated the company, terminated the rental, made a police report and sent an official email to him for all that I have done.

Even after liquidating everything, he still owes me money.

Legal advice was to sue his ass but I don’t have time to deal with scumbags.

Actually I do but I do not want to waste it chasing an asshole who doesn’t want to be found.

I do have legal and illegal resources at my disposal but I believe my quality of life would be better by putting him in my past.

I just got a callback for a second interview for an MNC to be based in Jakarta.

I would rather concentrate on that.

I am also in a competition in FB that’s keeping me busy.

Not to mention a movie marathon this weekend with my babies.

All positive aspects in my life that I should focus on.

Not gonna dwell on a bastard who thinks that he can play God with people’s life just because he has lots of money.

Tomorrow Has To Come

2011-03-15T23:32:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow I will be making a report against my boss.

He has declined to pay my salary due to his own problems.

Under normal circumstances I would just move on.

I do not like drama or scenes.

But I cannot afford it.

He owes me and I need the money.

I have to lock down the office and make a formal complaint at the Labour Department.

*sigh*

All I wanted is work and get paid.

Hate politics and unprofessional people.

Its horrible when the boss is the unprofessional one.

Gotta move on.... have given him an ultimatum and he has ignored me.

I hope our Labour Department is efficient in getting my salary.

Bosses From Hell

2011-03-14T21:38:00.004+08:00

I just changed job recently because the perks provided was too good to be passed up.

Now I find out he is a boss from hell.

I don’t mind if the boss is cranky, foul mouth or a slave driver.

I can deal with it.

But I am referring to bosses who don’t pay (when they have oodles of cash in their personal account).

My current boss refuses to pay because there is no business.

Its not my fault but he is blaming me.

I cant bring in the business if the company is not registered!

Its not registered because he took more than a month to register!

I have had other bosses like that.

1.Boss refuses to pay because he had a falling out with his partner. He told me to get it from his partner. His partner has ran away!!!

2. No salary because business is bad. The business is bad because the boss insists on playing hours of snooker with management and me! How the F&*# are we suppose to do marketing???

The thing that gets me pissed off is that these fuckers are rich!

They would rather screw the working class than to be responsible.

Now I have to go job hunting.

*sigh*

Black March

2011-03-07T23:28:00.001+08:00

Everything that can go wrong went wrong.

I started March with dread, hoping that my fears will not come true....

Its not confirmed yet, but the month is shaping up to be my worst case scenario.

I took a gamble late last year and it looks like things are not shaping up as expected.

Back to the drawing board.

*sigh*

One For The Books

2011-02-24T15:49:00.003+08:00

Thats Aria holding a cup to the wall with her forehead while wailing away.

This is her time out.

I think that its sooooo cute.

I used to make my daughters stand at a corner when they misbehave.

Wish I thought of this when they were growing up.

This is a lot more fun.

For me.

Not the one taking a time out.

LOL

The Truth

2011-02-23T18:22:00.002+08:00

You want the truth?

You cant handle the truth!

A line from "A Few Good Men"

Its so true

I hear loads of bitching from people and the blame always goes to others but never themselves.

If it happens all the time, shouldn't one starts to reflect?

When I insult you, are you offended because you know that its true?

If you don't want an honest in your face opinion, don't ask me for one!

Flatline

2011-02-22T17:30:00.003+08:00

The month is finishing and is blah!

Cant be avoided after the exciting and hectic last few months.

I guess blah is a good thing.

Nothing in sight for the next few months.

Currently planning for the next vacation.

Am hoping that work will fill in the blanks but my boss is soooo slow.

Hopefully things will pick up in March workwise.

For now.......

ZZzZzzzzzzZz

Valentine?

2011-02-14T19:00:00.003+08:00

This year didn’t do anything for Valentines.

It is said that on Valentines we celebrate our relationships with flowers, gifts and romantic dinners or dates.

WTF!

I do that almost everyday.

I don’t need a reason to buy my beloved a gift.

I don’t need an excuse to take her out for a nice dinner.

I don’t need a pretext to show her how much I love her.

Everyday that I wake up next to her is a Valentines for me.

*wink*

Chinese New Year

2011-02-09T14:00:00.006+08:00

CNY was different this year.

We went away instead of staying home.

Stayed at AFamosa for 3 days.

It was a great bonding time for the family without interruptions from the TV or unannounced guest.

Fun in the water.... literally.

Night time is gambling time.

Even the kids have their own session.... except for Serene who is doing her homework??

Reflections..... Grow Up?

2011-01-28T23:28:00.004+08:00

Yes…. It’s a condom.

I was holding it coz I needed to make a speech and a mic was not available.

My shirt was drenched from all the foam that they showered on me.

It was a great night but I am not here to talk about that night or who was there or what happened.

I wanna talk about who was not there.

Some of my closest friends were not there.

Some were overseas and some were….. making excuses?

Some of my friends grew up and started acting their age.

Sure, I am 40 but act my age?

How is a 40 year old suppose to act?

No fun allowed?

No more crazy nights?

WTF!

I am having fun and I am living my life.

I am a father and a husband, but does that mean I no longer can have any fun?

Some will say grow up.

Be an adult.

I say Fuck You!

I don’t hurt those around me, I am not irresponsible, I am just living my life and not be a hypocrite.

I have no regrets.

I am surrounded by friends that I love who loves me back.

I have a soulmate who is my best friend.

My siblings are closer to me more than before.

My life is great.

How is yours treating you?

Having fun as an adult?

Bored?

Monotonous lifestyle?

You have my pity……

Don’t judge me just because you don’t have the balls to stay true to yourself.

When you stop being yourself, you are already dead.

Stop making excuses that you are an adult!

Goodbye Kaloi

2011-01-28T23:19:00.002+08:00

It finally happened.

Kaloi passed away today at exactly 2314.

Before passing away, Kaloi was thrashing away in the tank, trying to jump out of the water.

There was nothing I can do but just watch.

I feel totally useless watching it suffer.

I never knew what was wrong.

I gave it vitamins, change the water….. but it has been suffering for months.

I know.

I can feel it.

On a brighter note, Kaloi was the longest pet that survived with me.

I believe it has been at least 5 years.

From a tiny fish no bigger than my palm, it has grown to be as big as my thigh.

Goodbye Kaloi, for you can never be replaced.

40th Birthday

2011-01-16T17:50:00.006+08:00

Woohoo….. I’m officially 40.

On my birthday, I had a sober dinner with the family.

Then Yana said that was it….. I was disappointed but I thought that’s fitting for a 40 year old.

No more wild parties or boozing.

I was so wrong.

The following weekend, Yana roped in Gareth to take me to Garden Suite…. A surprised party with loads of booze.

Hehehe…. It was great.

Just wanna thank Yana, Alyssa, Diane, Gareth, Allan, Jo, Jeanne, Mei Ling, Chandra, Jay and JK for making the party happening and fun.

*wink*

Family dinner.

Cake time!

Was made into a snowman when I entered the room.

Surrounded by hot gals.

Chandra and gang.

Gareth and Allan.

Jo just gave me a birthday greeting on the floor.

Diane is out for the count.

Winding down….. I’m hammered!

The Clock Ticks (Part 4) Down Memory Lane

2011-01-07T15:59:00.004+08:00

Another 2 days before I hit the big Four-O!

Went thru some of my old pictures and wanna share some that kinda chronicle my life.

Here it is:

My youngest known picture. No idea how old am I here.

In primary school.

In secondary school.

In the school Cadet Band.

Working fresh out of school.

Getting married.

Celebrating my birthday with my daughters and nieces.

And my rock that holds it all together. (Check out the TShirt…. Hahahaha)

Happy New Year

2011-01-01T21:14:00.003+08:00

Started the new year with my beloved and close friends at home.

Diane was not around because she wanted to go clubbing.

Lots of drinks and food.

I was content.

Its all good.

I know 2011 will be a good year.

Cant wait to get started.

*wink*

Goodbye 2010

2010-12-31T13:06:00.003+08:00

It’s the last day of the year.

Time for reflection.

The first half of the year was…. Just normal.

Nothing new or exciting.

Second half was great.

Went to Beijing (was in shopping heaven)

Had a blast with my gals (after not seeing them for two years)

Finally did renovations to my place (at last a working kitchen)

Had an unexpected job offer (starting in January)

New year offers new challenges and I am all geared up for it.

Wooooohooooooo……..

A Tribute To A Great Boss

2010-12-30T21:11:00.004+08:00

Its not a myth!

There is such a thing as a great boss.

His name is H.

When I was given an offer I cannot refuse, my first concern was how to tell him.

I couldn’t sleep…. I tossed and turned all night.

The next day, I was nervous and worried.

I am worried that I would disappoint him but I needed the challenge that was offered.

When at last he came in, I broke the news to him.

I felt his concern for my well being when he heard it’s a new company.

That’s H…. his ability to show concern for others over his own.

To quote the driver, “Tak tahula saya, bila dia cakap Hello Bro, saya terus cair”, meaning he can never get angry with H.

There are so many instances that exemplified his character, but there isn’t enough space here to write it all down.

I just want to say that during his birthday and I was walking around with him in the club, I wasn’t being protective because he is my boss, I was protective because I think of him as my bro.

He is no longer my boss, but he will always be my bro and friend.

My new journey starts with a great appreciation of what a great boss should be.

My new adventure begins with the believe that doing the right thing is its own reward.

My new year commences with the knowledge that I have a friend that I can confide.

I pray that he achieves the success that reflects the passion that he has for life, work and relationships.

At Last, With My Gals

2010-12-29T12:33:00.002+08:00

Its been 2 years since I last saw my gals.

Its great that I get to have them for 3 days.

Instead of boring them with my presence for three days, I got some of their cousins to join us.

Aishah, Dijah, Sarah, Farish and Michelle will be joining Nadya and Jazmeen.

On the first day I took them to a beading class.

And because of the heavy rain, we went to karaoke instead of the Bird Park.

More than 4 freaking hours of young girls screaming and singing.

It was fun!

Second day, only Michelle could join us.

Total shopping!

Bought them all kinda stuff from school shoes to necklaces.

On the third day, we just had a quiet family lunch.

Its all good…. Hopefully I don’t have to wait for another 2 years to see them again.

*keeping fingers crossed*

Beading time.

Karaoke madness!

Chillin at Baskin.

At the end of the day.

Me and my gals.

Christmas Cards

2010-12-23T20:48:00.003+08:00

I have never made a card before.

Not a birthday, seasonal, valentine or mother’s day card!

There are too many people that I would like to send the cards to but with limited resources…. I am just sending it to my fellow Guardians and Mur.

Merry Christmas!

Started with playing around the JPEGS on my laptop.

Putting my personal touch on it.

Here is my crazy attempt at art with some raw materials…. Snowflake and glitter.

Putting glue on the snowflake.

Now to make my snowflake shiny.

Do they look pretty? *wink*

Now to stick them on the cards!

Btw…… I know its only a card, but it’s a personalised card.

It’s a gift from the bottom of my heart.

Federation D Street Party

2010-12-23T14:26:00.006+08:00

Attended Federation D’s Street Party last week.

Lots of fast cars and hot chicks.

Not gonna waste time posting car pictures.

Here is what you missed if you were not there.

*wink*

U Mobile

2010-12-13T15:06:00.002+08:00

I hate putting down another person, or even another organization but I need to vent.

U Mobile, you suck!

First and foremost, when I first subscribe to you, your billing was screwed up.

I pay every single month but its not always reflected in the bill.

Your excuse is that your system is not ready.

WTF!

You start a business and your billing system is not ready??

It shows the mentality of your management!

And the connection is always dropping.

Its like the freaking Chipsmore ad, now you see it now you don’t!

It got from bad to worse… to the point that I can hardly stay online anymore.

Time to discontinue my account.

Calling them was easy enough.

And as usual when a customer wants to discontinue, they will make you jump thru hoops.

Fax this, fax that….. whats new?

And when I called to confirm, your people argued with me.

Gave me wrong information and insisting that I pay even more for discontinuing the service.

Thank god I know whats right or wrong, and I fought for my rights.

What about those that are non confrontational or ignorant about your policies.

With the market becoming more competitive, you still offer below par service with support that is lacking?

You are definitely looking at professional suicide.

U MOBILE SUCKS!

Anime

2010-12-10T13:44:00.002+08:00

Did I mention I love watching cartoons?

Besides getting the box set for series, I get anime as well.

My latest interest is Fairy Tail.

I hate chasing it on the tube as my timing is never predictable.

Went to the night market to get the box set (as you can see in the pic, I am spoilt for choice)

The box set available is only part of the season.

It seems the series is still incomplete (Yes, Meru said “I told you so”)

I hate walking away empty handed, so I bought Samurai X.

One of my earlier fav series.

Now to see if I am free this weekend for a marathon of 90 plus episodes.

*wink*

December

2010-12-03T13:27:00.002+08:00

December, a new month with new projects.

My gals will be with me for three days. Yay!

Looking forward to that and am very excited about it.

But the main project is the renovation.

Focus is on the kitchen with a possibility of doing the walk in.

Now it looks like the walk in is a go with the possibility of doing the dinner area.

Budget is totally broken but hey…. Why not?

Its not always I get contractors messing up my place, might as well maximise them.

Then there is the Christmas and New Year Party.

Busy, busy, busy!

Random In Beijing

2010-12-03T12:23:00.003+08:00

More pics from Beijing!

Acting like tourist in front of Hard Rock.

Chillin after walking about at Tiananmen.

Lets have some fun!

Diane with a Korean dude (confirming her fetish for old man)

Chillin outside Pearl Market (rare moments when we can feel the sun’s heat)

Strike a pose! High fashion!

New Friend At The Great Wall

2010-11-28T22:24:00.002+08:00

Made a new friend in Beijing.

At the Great Wall to be exact.

When we reached the Great Wall, I see this beautiful cat sitting under the information board.

It’s a black and white Persian.

Its very beautiful.

I patted it and went on our merry ways.

Once we were done with all the climbing and back to square one we needed a break and guess what… the cat was sitting at the bench.

We sat near it and the cat went to Yana and snuggled against her.

After a few minutes, the cat put her paws on Yana and lay on her.

It was soooo cute.

Yana wanted to bring her back to Malaysia but we know that’s not possible.

I will be going back to the Great Wall and I look to seeing the cat again.

Beijing Shopping Havens

2010-11-28T21:30:00.001+08:00

Shopping is great in Beijing.

Forget about the shopping complexes or malls.

I only went to three places and spent all my money there!

I went to Panjiayuan, Silk Market and Pearl Market.

Other shopping sites I wanted to go but didn’t is the Russian Market and the Antique Market.

Not enough time or money.

PANJIAYUAN
In Malaysia you can compare it to Central Market. Loads of arts and crafts. Tons of shops and stalls that will sell you all kinds of carvings, drawings, jewellery and what nots. They have at least ten stalls that specialises in stones. Yes…. stones, not precious stones but stones! Gotta say the stones are beautiful but nevertheless stones.

SILK MARKET
Be ready for war! If you are weak, spineless and non confrontational, this place is a nightmare for you. The sales people are very aggressive. They will try their best to close a sale. You need to haggle or you will pay more than necessary. The place has loads of boots, bags, clothes and accessories. The competition is very high, so you can use that as an advantage to get the best bargains.

PEARL MARKET
It is similar to Silk Market but they also have lots of souvenirs, make up and gadgets. Loads of it. A good place for souvenir hunting or get the latest Iphone.

I went to Silk Market three times coz the place is huge!

The price is freakingly cheap if you are willing to haggle.

Example, they will try to sell you a bag for 500Yuan, you can get it for 100Yuan.

If you do not have much time, concentrate on Silk Market.

Drop by Pearl Market for the souvenirs and go to Panjiayuan to experience their culture.

If you love shopping, Silk Market is big enough to satisfy your needs.

I will be going back to Beijing and I definitely will spend at least one whole day there again!

Beijing Trip (Pictorial)

2010-11-24T21:32:00.005+08:00

I have more than 500 pics of my shenanigans in Beijing.

I will only upload just a few that shows the whole trip.

In the plane on the way to Beijing.

At the airport in Beijing.

Freezing my ass on the first night night in Beijing.

Admiring my banana split (Don’t forget I am a banana split whore)

Getting ready to enter the Forbidden City

The sun does love me. The Emperors giving me their blessings?

The awesomeness of the Forbidden City!

The historic Tiananmen Square

Some shadow play on the grounds of the Square

Getting close and personal with the Terracotta warriors

Fooling around from my upper bunk in the sleeper train

Bird’s eye view from my “lift” to the wall

Reflection of Diane and me in the “lift”

Finally on the wall!!!

As usual, smoking on the wall

The slow walk back on the wall

Getting ready to toboggan down the mountain

Going crazy on our last night!

It was a great trip with great company.

Cant wait for the next trip!

Beijing Survival Guide

2010-11-21T18:00:00.001+08:00

Here are some tips to survive in Beijing.

1. Even if they speak fluent English, double check and ask a few more times to confirm the information received. They consistently misunderstand you and gives wrong info. They sound like they understand, but most of the time they don’t.

2. Learn to use their subways. Their subways only cost 2Yuan to go anywhere. They have 8 lines that are interconnected and is very useful to save money on cab fare.

3. Research where you want to go to ensure you don’t miss out on experiences.

4. When haggling for the best price, if they are not angry with the price you asking for, its not cheap enough. Just ask for dirt cheap prices coz there are lots of shops that sell the same things and they want to make the sale. You don’t like the price…. Move on.

5. Wear thick and comfortable shoes to make sure you enjoy everything. Its cold and walking about is a must.

6. Avoid taking cabs unless necessary coz they have subways, sleeper trains and bullet trains that will take you to places at a fraction of the cab price.

Enjoy!

First Step.... Great Wall

2010-11-21T17:19:00.001+08:00

I took my first step to my goal.

I want to see all the wonders of the world.

I was at the Great Wall.

It was an incredible feeling.

To climb the stairs that ancient soldiers was on.

To see where they eat and sat and waited for signs of danger.

The feeling is cannot be described.

I want to go back there.

I want to climb higher.

There are three tourist spots, Badaling, Simatai and Mutianyu.

Badaling is the favourite because there are no stairs between the towers. Just a flat passage that’s easy for the tourist to walk on.

Simatai is the toughest as it is very high and very authentic. It was closed though coz it was too dangerous.

Mutianyu is also high but there is a cable car that brings us up.

And there are only stairs there…. Its tough therefore less tourists.

I want to go to Mutianyu and climb higher.

It would be my challenge.

Need to get fit first.

I only went to 1 tower (Not counting the first tower I started from)

I want to conquer at least 3 towers the next round.

Spoils From Beijing

2010-11-21T15:14:00.004+08:00

Here are some visuals from what I got from Beijing.

Luggage bag to bring back all the crap I bought from Beijing.

A pair of shoes. (Both working shoes)

Leather jacket. (It was freakingly cheap, so why not?)

Leather cap to protect my ears. (My ears were freezing)

Leather gloves (My earlier gloves was not good enough)

A knapsack (Need a bag to carry stuff when I am moving about)

I have more stuff that I bought like paper cuttings of dragon, calligraphy, dragon statue, stone carving, lighters and souvenirs.

Need to bring more money for my next round.

Hehehehe…..

4 Hours To Go

2010-11-12T21:07:00.003+08:00

In 4 hours Alyssa will be picking us up to go to the airport.

Stupid bitch cant join us.

We would paint Beijing red all four of us, but…. Maybe next time.

Anyways, 6 hours in a plane… not looking forward to it.

Not gonna sleep now so that I can sleep the flight away.

Nothing beats going on a plane, fall asleep and wake up when its ready to land.

8 days away from Malaysia….

Gonna miss everyone here but its only 8 days.

Gonna celebrate Raya Haji in Xian.

Cant wait…..

Until then….

Be prepared for my next post with lots of pics!

Roll Call

2010-11-12T21:05:00.000+08:00

Looks like a trend to update only every few months

Linda, Dayana, Alena, Muliza, American Chick, Zuridah, Stephanie, Joyce, Shikin, Nadiah, Nicole, Yana, Zurina, Madeline, Pahang Gal, Sue, Dewi, Mie, Fizah, Siti, Bee, Lyana, Moon, Nurul, Beth, Sherry, Tina, Syezza, Filly, Fern, Maya, Yaya, Karen, Wan, Ziera, Waeda, Bella

When You Lie

2010-11-08T14:21:00.002+08:00

I caught you in a lie last Friday.

Not three days ago but 10 days ago.

I didn’t react, I just kept quite.

Maybe you had a good reason, maybe you will let me know.

But everyday, the bitterness of knowing you lied to me ate at me.

But I keep consoling myself that its not a big thing.

Everyday I watch everything you say…..

Everyday, words from your mouth annoy me…..

Everyday, I don’t believe a single thing that you are telling me.

I still keep my mouth shut because I know I have a bad temper.

I know if I confront you there is a strong possibility I will just cut you off.

I do not want to react or be emotional about it.

Actually, I do not want to say anything…. But I couldn’t hold my tongue anymore today.

I still didn’t want to confront but I wanted you to know that I know.

And you say I am reacting and being emotional?

Instead of understanding and regretting that you lied you try to justify it?

It is not the topic…. It is the lie?

You blame me for you lying.

You blame the topic for the need to lie.

You know how I feel?

I cant trust you…..

I hate not being able to trust you!

And you blaming everything else for your actions just show that you will do it again coz you don’t believe it was wrong to lie.

I don’t trust you…… that’s what lying do to me.

I don’t trust you……

True Friend

2010-11-07T16:37:00.002+08:00

Some have questioned my policy of cutting people off just because they are not up to my standards.

Here is someone that I call friend.

She will be losing her job soon.

She is offered a good position in a different organization but that would mean depriving another one of our friend the opportunity to get it.

She turned it down.

She will not do anything that will hurt a friend or the possibility of hurting a friend.

She would rather continue her search than to risk hurting a friendship.

It is easy to do the right thing when nothing is at risk.

But what if doing the right thing compromises your own personal well being.

That is when your true colours come out.

She is a friend.

I do not have a lot of friends, but I am proud to say that my friends have my back.

You have more friends than me?

Who cares?

My 5 lions are better than your 500 sheep!

So Wrong

2010-11-04T20:09:00.003+08:00

I saw this posted on a girl’s blog

******************************

I know you want SEXUAL FAVOURS when...

1. You invite me to go to Genting Highlands.

2. You call in the middle of the night asking what i'm wearing.

3. You said you are feeling "cold"... (just coz it happens to be raining or it's late at night).

4. You want to webcam.

5. You want to 3G.

6. You invite me over to your place.

7. You invite yourself to my place.

8. And many more which i currently can't think of or that crosses my mind right now.

******************************

Well, I just want to say that she is sooooo wrong!

Everything we guys say or do is asking for sexual favors.

When we want to get to know you better.

When we ask for your number.

When we look at you!

*wink*

Bottomline

2010-11-04T10:56:00.002+08:00

Some of you would know my pet peevs.

The most well known ones are lying and waiting.

There are others but the list might be too long.

Anyways, it all comes down to my one rule.

Once you understand it, you will understand why I cut people off and do what I do.

Trust…… I need to trust.

I cannot live a life of distrust.

Some call me naïve and stupid.

Maybe they are right but I cant stand it if I cannot trust.

I need to know that I am surrounded by people who has my back.

That’s why I hate liars.

That’s why I hate waiting.

That’s why I cut off people that I cannot trust.

Call me arrogant, but I have only 24 hours in a day, and I don’t have time people I don’t trust.

Shopping Done

2010-10-30T17:26:00.002+08:00

Its done!

All shopping for my Beijing trip is done.

I have my black beanie.

My black parka and gloves.

And a muffler that’s black, white and gray.

I am ready to face the cold of Beijing.

Now to figure out if I should get anything new for clubbing at Beijing.

Hmmm……..

Blackberry Playbook

2010-10-26T11:59:00.003+08:00

I’m in love!

The Blackberry Playbook is calling to me.

Full computing power in a tablet format

1GHz dual-core processor

1 GB RAM

Symmetric multi-processing

Full Adobe Flash 10.1 enabled

Built-in support for HTML 5

I WANT!!!!

My birthday coming soon!

*wink wink hint hint*

Goodbye East Malaysia

2010-10-23T19:38:00.002+08:00

My boss told me recently that he will handle East Malaysia.

Sounds good to me coz I am kinda sick of flying around.

In KK, I love the food.

Really good food.

In Bintulu, everything is so laid back.

Probably because the trip is short, making the flying too frequent and near to each other.

The break will be good.

On the down side, I will also miss the food and hospitality of East Malaysians.

They are soooo friendly.

I will also miss the cheap ciggies.

Imagine RM4 for twenty sticks of ciggies.

That’s a savings of RM6 per pack.

Well, until my boss changes his plans again…. Gotta slow down on my smoking.

*wink*

Technology

2010-10-23T19:09:00.002+08:00

Damn technology!

It is suppose to make our lives more efficient but is it?

Something happens and I need to status update my myspace, facebook, twitter, BBM and my blog.

Internet down and nothing can be done.

How did we survive without internet?

On a positive note information is shared faster.

Also, I made some international friends.

Now to go update some fat mama jokes on twitter.

=P

Tight Schedule Ahead

2010-10-23T19:04:00.002+08:00

Next week is Diane's birthday bash.

In three weeks I will be going to Beijing.

After that, in December my gals will be paying me a visit.

Than its my 40th birthday.

Busy busy.....

Gonna be tough on my finances.

The price of living my life like there is no tomorrow.

Hahahahaha.....

Shit can hit the fan tomorrow, but I am having fun today!

*wink*

Diane

2010-10-22T14:26:00.003+08:00

Diane……

Some say she is the female version of me.

I do agree that she is one of the very few who can shut me up.

I will not dwell on the part where we first got to know each other.

Just wanna say that I am happy that she is my sis.

Btw, though this is not her first flight on a plane, I still think she will still be like a monkey who just broke out of the zoo.

=P

Jet Plane

2010-10-22T11:45:00.003+08:00

Just came back from another trip that requires flying.

Some may say that I am blessed coz I fly around so much but trust me…. I prefer driving.

The thrill of flying is gone when you travel as much as I do.

I have been travelling to East Malaysia quiet often and the flight is around 2 to 3 hours.

Get in a plane, wait for the head count, wait for the food then off to sleep.

If I can sleep.

Or just listen to music on my BB waiting for the trip to be over.

Its boringgg!

Now my trip to Beijing requires 6 hours of flight time.

*groan*

I know it helps that my baby is with me but…. Its not like we can romp in the plane. Hehehe…

Diane will be with us but seriously….. how much conversation can we have in the plane?

Maybe I should get travel scrabble or some kinda travelling board game.

6 hours stuck in a flying tin can be quiet unnerving.

I wanna sleep, but this being Diane’s first flight, she will probably be jumping around like a monkey on a weekend break from the zoo.

*sigh*

Well, at least I can look forward to freezing my balls off in the cold weather of Beijing.

Beijing.... Here I Come

2010-10-20T00:01:00.003+08:00

Its final!

Just got the visas for the trip to Beijing.

Only thing left to do is to shop for the cold weather of Beijing.

Or might just shop in Beijing at the infamous Silk Street on the first day.

I think I will risk it and shop there.

Its cheaper and definitely make an adventure.

It’s a double first.

First time I will be touching and feeling snow.

First time I will be visiting a wonder of the world, the great wall of China.

Will also be checking out the Terracotta Army in Xian.

The trip will be both about historical sites and shopping.

The trip gets better when its with my sayang.

Everything is a lot more fun when she is around.

I love sharing new experiences with my baby.

Also coming along is one of my sis Diane (The only one who can shut me up).

She will add to the craziness of the trip.

Its 8 days 7 nights, she will be so sick of me at the end of the trip…. Hahahahahaha

Its too bad my other sis Alyssa cannot make it.

Maybe the next trip?

Life Is Full Of Choices

2010-10-19T23:10:00.003+08:00

I always say we have a choice.

No matter what circumstances that we find ourselves in, there are always options.

I really hate people who says “I don’t have a choice”

No such thing.

Stop bitching!

You had a choice but you choose not to choose.

You ignore the roads less taken.

Easier said than done?

Well, I now too have to make a choice.

I can choose to stay loyal or betray my principles.

I can choose to be loyal and stay in my comfort zone.

Or I can pursue other options and venture into the unknown.

I know lots of people will normally choose the comfort zone….. but I have never been normal.

But loyalty is one of my strongest traits.

Its not gonna be easy, but choose I will.

Screw loyalty if the one I pledge my loyalty to doesn’t give me the security that I need.

Gone are the days where I follow blindly.

I am too old for that shit now.

I am gonna be 40……

*sigh*

Yes, I guess I am changing with age.

Please smack me if I change too much.

=P

40th Birthday Presents

2010-10-17T21:47:00.002+08:00

I am giving you guys a heads up on my birthday presents.

2 months for you to save up and get it. *wink*

Here goes:

Tag Hauer watch

Hummer H2

A Bungalow at Mutiara Damansara

An all expense paid trip to Europe for 2

A hot bi girl who is ready to play

The winning lottery ticket for RM15,000,000

Hahahahahahaha……

Am I aiming for the stars?

Something more realistic?

Box set – Complete season of Charm, Angel or Buffy the Vampire Slayer

A damn cool metal bracelet (mine is broken *sob*)

A flat screen 51” TV

My perfect birthday?

Being with all my loved ones on that day, which includes my 2 girls that I miss very much.

The Clock Ticks (Part 3)

2010-10-16T17:52:00.003+08:00

*sigh*

There was a check list that I have for when I turn 40.

It was a long list. (Anyways I lost the list) LOL

I do know that I have achieved one important point in that list…. I am happily married.

Now for some points that I have failed.

Millionaire!

Yes, I wanted to be a millionaire before I turn 40. I am a long way from that!

Still working my ass off for a living.

Retire!

I want to retire early. I want to enjoy my freedom while I am still young. (Life starts at 40)

If I retire in the next few months, I am gonna be broke. Need a better financial plan.

Landed Property!

I wanted a big house with a spacious ground.

Now I am in a condo with no land.

I want cats and koi pond.

Still a goal.

2 more months before I reach 40.

What are the chances that I will achieve it in 2 months.

Hmmmmmm…..

The Clock Ticks (Part 2)

2010-10-16T17:03:00.003+08:00

Lets do it.

Next round of reflections…… relationships!

I have had lots of relationships since I had my first one when I was 14.

Its weird but I don’t think I was alone for more than a week since then.

There is always someone there for me.

I guess I am blessed but some will say I have issues of being single.

Here is another fun fact…. I have never dump a single girlfriend.

I am the one that gets dump all the time.

Sometimes I am hurt, sometimes I am relieved.

Anyways, I am very happy that I will be celebrating my 40th with the best relationship I ever have.

No pretending to be something I am not.

She doesn’t try to change me.

We go hunting together.

We do everything together.

Best ever!

*grins*

The Clock Ticks

2010-10-14T18:08:00.002+08:00

I’m gonna hit 40 in a few months.

Need to reflect on some crap before my life begins. *wink*

I’m gonna start with people that I have cut outta my life.

Some will say I probably am selfish and is not understanding.

Well….. my time is limited, with my work and my alone time…. I don’t have time for people who are fakes.

Seriously, everyone claims that they are your best friend la, your true friend la but when the shit hits the fan, that’s when their true colour shows.

Whats a friend, someone who will have your back no matter what happens.

I have seen people who are only all talk.

They don’t walk the walk.

I am sorry…. I am sorry I don’t want you in my life anymore.

I am an ass but at least I honestly care for my friends.

I don’t pretend to be nice in front of you and be mean behind your back.

I am an ass in front and behind you.

Not much loss not having me in your life.

If you prefer to surround yourself with fake people, that’s your choice.

Just don’t come crying when you finally realised who your true friends are.

You had your chance, move on, learn from it and may you become a better person from it.

Yes, I know, I sound like an arrogant prick, but you knew that already.

Peace out!

Hands

2010-10-13T16:10:00.001+08:00

I never thought that holding hands would ever be my thing.

Now…. In my hotel room alone…. I miss holding her hands.

Especially when I am falling asleep.

My ritual is to smell her skin and hug her.

And then if she is not yet asleep, our fingers will intervine while we fall off to sleep.

Its very intimate.

Falling asleep while holding each others hands is something you need to do to understand it.

A sense of security that she is there while you lose consciousness.

A feeling of being loved before drifting off to never never land.

A sense of comfort knowing you are not alone as you embark on a lonely journey.

Arggghh….. miss my beloved!

Another 24 hours before I can see her.

Miss my room.

Miss my bed.

Most of all…. Miss her beside me.

WTF Moments

2010-10-12T20:09:00.002+08:00

You are having dinner and notice a salesman going from table to table. You start thinking of excuses and ways to turn the guy down. As he approaches you, he ignores you and moves on to the next table. WTF!

You leave your hotel room and see a hot chick walking towards you in the hall way. You can see that she is smiling at you. As she gets within earshot, she looks you in the eyes and with a glowing smile says “You want massage sir?” WTF!

While waiting for your flight at the airport, you notice a cute girl who keeps smiling and looking at you. After a while, she sits closer to you and you notice that she is underage! WTF!

At the airport you notice a gal who has the face of an angel and the body of a slut. You watch when she stands up and goes to the ladies, as she plays with her long flowing hair, as she waits in the same as line as your flight. The Gods are smiling at you because she is sitting right next to you…. But someone else is already in your seat! WTF!

Your niece is all prim and proper when you speak to her. Then she started a Twitter account. You follow her and she is spouting all kinds of vulgarities in her tweets. WTF!

Your friend starts a MS account and asks that she be in your top friends. After a week of pestering you give in and put her profile in your top friends. A few days later she deletes her account. WTF!

A gal gives you her phone number in MS and asks to call her. You do. After flirting with her for half an hour, she says she is actually a guy. WTF!

A gal plays hard to get for a year. After a year of patience she says she is ready to come over to your place. Wooohoooo….. Then you realised that the date she gave is the same date that you will be out of town. WTF!

You never watch the speed limit. You speed whenever you are on the highway. On the day that you feel mellow and watch the speed limit, you get stopped by the cops for speeding! WTF!

Shopping for The Big Bandit

2010-10-12T14:30:00.003+08:00

My good friend The Big Bandit asked me to get him some large T’s.

XXXXL to be exact.

In KK, there is a shop that specialize in big T’s.

While waiting for my room to be ready (I landed early in KK), I went shopping.

Got a few cartons of ciggies and went and look at some big T’s.

Bought two.

These are what they look like.

The Big Bandit only wanted black as its “flattering”…. Hahahahaha

The T’s are black with designs.

I only took the pictures of the designs as the Ts are huuuge!

Royalty Reigns

Devil Of Death

Hope he likes it.

*grins*

Hammered!

2010-10-11T00:06:00.002+08:00

Havent been hammered for a long time.

Normally I stay sober when clubbing coz I need to drive.

I didn’t plan to be hammered during the day for lunch.

Had the best Devil’s Curry at Diane’s place.

Then I started to drink.

Diane didn’t allow for my glass to be empty.

It keeps getting refilled.

Then Diane, her mum and her sister gang up on me and started to make me go bottoms up.

That’s when I got hammered.

=P

Why not?

Havent been hammered for ages.

It was fun.

Hahahahahha……

Helpless

2010-10-08T16:42:00.003+08:00

There is nothing worse than watching your love one hurting.

It is especially bad when there is nothing we can do.

We can only offer words of encouragement with the hope that they will feel better.

It normally doesn’t work.

We can only watch as they cry in dismay, seethe in anger or just go eerily quiet in disappointment.

We can only hope that they snap out of it fast.

We can only pray that they move on swiftly.

But until then, we feel helpless.

A helplessness that eats at your soul, wishing for super powers like time travel, mind control or whatever that can make things better.

I do not wish this on anyone….. even my worse enemies.

Aim To Please?

2010-10-07T16:37:00.002+08:00

…………………………………………………..
Me: Nadya?

Her: She is like other normal kid

Her: Taking it easy

Her: Jaz is extra ordinary

Her: Always want to please
…………………………………………………..

I should be proud but instead I am worried.

Its good that she has empathy but is it for real?

I worry that inside she is not happy pleasing others.

One day she will rebel, and a whole new extreme will come out.

Seen a lot of that in others.

I would rather she do what she prefers to do.

Not asking her to be selfish, but at least I know she is happy inside.

A father’s worry is never over.

Urgh..... Budget

2010-10-04T00:19:00.003+08:00

Grrrr….. I hate budgeting.

I never need to do budgeting before because I was always broke.

There never was enough money.

Some will say that’s when you need to budget, but that’s easier said than done.

You cant budget when there is no money to budget.

You get paid at the end of the month and it will be gone before a month pass by.

But now that I have enough money I need to budget.

I am pissing my money away on food, clubbing and shopping.

I didn’t even realise I have money to throw until now.

I have money to save for holidays.

Its giving me a headache but its good headache.

Need to budget my money for Beijing.

Grrrr…. It’s a bloody headache!

Shopping

2010-10-03T23:52:00.000+08:00

Just went shopping with my favourite ladies…. Yana, Alyssa and Diane.

A rose among the thorns.

Hahahaha……

Suppose to shop for the Beijing trip.

Saw pictures of Beijing in winter.

The locals are all wrapped up.

Damn!

I guess we tropical people will be freezing!

So, need to get winter clothes.

Winter clothes are so gaudy.

Maybe it’s a Malaysian thing.

I saw something I like… a tanned leather jacket.

Everyone said I looked great in it.

I put it back coz I couldn’t afford it.

*sigh*

We didn’t buy anything.

Either its too expensive or its just plain ugly.

Need to go shop somewhere else.

Well, I love shopping, so not gonna complain

*wink*

Open Road

2010-09-23T21:03:00.002+08:00

Ahhh……

Just came back from a road trip.

Work related but this one is different.

Normally I travel with someone but this time I was alone.

I needed it.

It brings back memories of me travelling alone up and down Malaysia.

Just me on the open road.

Blasting my music to the max.

Stopping whereever I want to.

Smoking whenever I want to.

Still missed my baby….. but I needed the break to clear my mind.

Its all good!

Need A Break

2010-09-20T15:22:00.002+08:00

I have an undertone of seething anger.

I have an urge to strike out physically.

I feel a need to pummel someone in the face.

No no….. I am not turning into a serial killer.

Just this dark, negative feeling lurking underneath.

I know it will be gone in a few days but I don’t like it.

Just having a few bad days.

Time off in the field will do me good.

Need a change of scenery to cool me down.

Thank God I will be away for six straight days.

I need distraction.

This is my world…… if I don’t shape it, someone else will.

Another Pic

2010-09-20T14:59:00.002+08:00

Here is a decent picture.

I am not gonna change the other pic though.

And here are my reasons:

It shows you have a healthy appetite. Therefore, you are healthy.

You do not care about how the other patrons perceive you. Shows you are confident.

Shows you in American Chilli’s. Meaning you have taste.

That’s a big chomp on the burger. Big mouth… handy. *wink wink*

Anyways, the pic depicts you as healthy, confident, has taste and got a big mouth.

A guy would have to be confident of himself to be attracted to those traits.

No more losers for you sis.

Its time to attract the confident ones!

1Malaysia?

2010-09-19T21:30:00.001+08:00

I am living testament of 1Malaysia.

I am a Chinese married to a Malay.

My sister is an Indian.

My best friends are Indian, Chinese and Malay.

My brothers are Indian, Chinese and Malay.

My family are Indian, Chinese and Malay.

I go clubbing with them.

I party with them.

We are proud to be who we are.

We are Malaysians.

We don’t need politicians spewing 1Malaysia concept.

I see 1Malaysia all around me, in the clubs, restaurants, mamak stalls.

There is no racial tension but only the propaganda set by the government.

We are who we are and we are proud of it.

Happy Birthday Sis!

2010-09-15T23:43:00.002+08:00

Just celebrated my sis birthday.

Happy Birthday Alyssa!

We had dinner at American Chilli’s at BSC.

Diane and Farin was there too.

Had tons of laugh.

Nothing beats laughing your heart out on your birthday.

Another year another birthday.

Ask her yourself if you want to know her age.

*wink*

Assume

2010-09-13T14:56:00.001+08:00

Assume!

Yup….. why do people like to assume?

Is it so hard to just ask?

We make assumptions all the time…. but what sets us apart from losers is that we do not make decisions or accusations based on assumptions.

We make a judgement based on what we feel instead of what we know?

Wtf!

If you don’t know then ask!

What happen to the age old wisdom of questioning what you don’t know?

Too good to ask?

Too high and mighty to ask?

Its more efficient to assume and strike?

*sigh*

Keep going down that road and you will see your own downfall.

It is good to be confident, it is bad when you are over confident.

No man is an island, and every man is unique.

Assuming others can be or will be like you is wrong.

Not only is it wrong but it is arrogant to believe so.

Final Fantasy 9

2010-09-13T14:40:00.002+08:00

As everyone knows, I am always playing my online games.

Call it an addiction or an obsession, it makes no difference.

I have always been into games.

But now, it seems I have only time for MMORPG.

I miss playing on my Playstation.

I miss playing my favourite game Final Fantasy 9.

It takes days if not weeks to finish it, but I really do enjoy it.

It is one of the best games that I have ever played.

I have already played it twice.

Will look forward to playing it again.

Al Fatiha

2010-09-13T14:28:00.002+08:00

Two days before Raya, Mami Bujah passed away (Yana’s aunt).

Déjà vu, as Yana’s dad also passed away two days before Raya.

She was a great lady who kept to herself and knows how to use common sense.

She will be missed by all who knows her.

Al Fatiha……

بِسْمِ اللّهِ الرَّحْمـَنِ الرَّحِيم
الْحَمْدُ للّهِ رَبِّ الْعَالَمِين
الرَّحمـنِ الرَّحِيم
مَـالِكِ يَوْمِ الدِّين
إِيَّاك نَعْبُدُ وإِيَّاكَ نَسْتَعِين
اهدِنَــــا الصِّرَاطَ المُستَقِيمَ
صِرَاطَ الَّذِينَ أَنعَمتَ عَلَيهِمْ غَيرِ المَغضُوبِ عَلَيهِمْ وَلاَ الضَّالِّين

In the name of Allah, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.
Praise be to Allah, Lord of the Worlds.
The Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.
Master of the Day of Judgement
To you we worship and to you we turn to in help.
Show us the straight path,
The path of those whom Thou hast favoured; Not the (path) of those who earn Thine anger nor of those who go astray.

Amin.

Raya?

2010-09-11T15:47:00.002+08:00

Second day of Raya.

First day was all about eating and playing fireworks.

This year there isn’t much feel, Yana’s aunty just passed away two days before Raya.

I didn’t even buy any baju raya.

I didn’t even invite my mum to the house.

I am glad I can smoke again now.

Miss my smokes.

This is one raya I will gladly forget.

There must be more to Raya than just this.

I’m thinking more about work than anything else.

Just thankful that my baby is with me.

End Of An Era

2010-09-09T22:08:00.002+08:00

Rizal, H, Ben and John.

That era is gone.

John left because he wasn’t performing.

He is one of the most knowledgeable person I know.

He knows every product there is in the market.

Unfortunately, he could not simplify his knowledge to be duplicated.

He confuses more than he enlightens.

It’s a loss that he left.

There is so much that he can contribute.

Ben…. My big bro Ben.

He left because he cannot cope financially.

He is one of the nicest person that I have ever met.

It is sad to see him go.

It is sad to see the circumstances that he is forced to leave.

Moving on… I’ll prove that the company will survive without them.

Not only survive, the company will be stronger than ever.

I am not bitter, I am just challenged.

I will prove that the company is strong.

I will prove that the company is THE company.

It will be their loss!

I Do Fast.... So?

2010-09-09T21:55:00.002+08:00

I don’t see the problem.

During the fasting month, lots of people don’t understand why I fast.

The confusion is because during any other day, I am quiet the devil.

I am the last person that they expect me to fast.

Well, my rationale is that I am good for a month in a year. LOL

Whats there not to understand?

Any other day I would be the devil incarnated and during Ramadhan I would keep my pitchfork in the closet.

The only month where I see no evil, hear no evil and speak no evil.

Whats there not to understand?

I am collect sins on any other day and I repent for a month.

It’s a cycle and it works for me.

*wink*

Maaf Zahir Batin

2010-09-09T20:44:00.000+08:00

I believe its been a month since I last blogged.

Just finished my last day of fasting.

Tomorrow will be Hari Raya Aidil Fitri.

So much has happened in the past 1 month.

Some good, some bad, some just plain ugly or sad.

Anyways, Maaf Zahir Batin to all who I have intentionally or unintentionally hurt.

I’ll update on happenings later.

The Climb

2010-08-13T20:37:00.004+08:00

Yup, I just watched the movie Hannah Montana

It was an entertaining movie and my fav part would be when she sang The Climb

The lyrics are very meaningful

I am sure a lot of people will relate to it

*********************************************

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

Ramadhan

2010-08-11T21:27:00.002+08:00

Just finished my first day of puasa.

There is a lot I am thankful for this time of year.

I am thankful for….

My wonderful other half, who is always there for me.

My gals who will be back in Malaysia in December.

My vacation to Beijing this November.

My understanding boss, H, who is both whacky and unpredictable.

My health and the health of my loved ones.

And of course, my friends that I love.

Another 30 days to go.

*burp*

Best Monday Ever!

2010-08-02T22:30:00.001+08:00

Woohooooo……

After nearly two years of no news and not seeing my gals, I got a sms.

It asked am I still using the same number?

I answered yes and asked who is that?

The message came from the mother of my daughters.

They are coming back to Malaysia for the Christmas holidays.

And I get them for 3 days 2 nights.

I’m soooo excited.

Best Monday ever.

Its 7 Years!

2010-07-14T22:24:00.002+08:00

Seven years!!!!

That’s right!

Yesterday was our 7 years anniversary.

There was no fanfare or any celebration.

We woke up, went to work, had dinner at her sister’s house and hung out with Mummy.

We didn’t need to celebrate coz everyday is a celebration for us.

Everyday we laugh, enjoy each other’s company and tell each other “I Love You”.

Anyways, we are saving up for our Beijing trip. *wink*

Some people cant understand how after 7 years we can still be acting like we are dating.

Simple answer…… we are not only in love, but we are actually best friends.

We really love doing everything together.

Anything and everything.

We are one and miss the other whenever we are not together.

We will celebrate big when we hit the big 10 years.

*big smile*

Good Bye South Africa, Hello Brazil

2010-07-12T12:07:00.002+08:00

Woohoooo…… Spain won!

Against a worthy opponent Holland, who played beautifully too.

It was a free flowing all out attacking game that is befitting a final.

I am sad that my favourite team Brazil is not in the Final, but they deserve to be out at the rate that they were playing.

Next World Cup Brazil will have the home ground advantage…. Can they get their groove back?

Anyways, Spain made history by winning their first World Cup.

First time in the Finals, and they clinch it!

Holland was not third time lucky.

Well…. Now that World Cup is over, its time to catch up with my sleep.

The picture above shows the huge crowd at Nathan’s, the place to be to catch the games.

*sings* Tsamina mina eh eh, Waka waka eh eh………

Will Be Missing You... Joey

2010-07-10T12:19:00.002+08:00

Joey left for Switzerland.

Sent Joey off at KLIA yesterday.

I watched him grew up to be who he is now.

He will be gone for at least 3 years.

Gonna miss him.

I know I am not that close with him, but I wish I am.

Really gonna miss him.

Proud of how he is now.

Beijing.... ITS ON!

2010-07-04T22:36:00.003+08:00

Done!

Its official!

The booking is made, there is no turning back.

Diane, Yana and me will be heading to Beijing for 8 days 7 nights!

Wooohooooo…..

November 13 till November 20.

Another 4 months to go.

Cant wait……….

Brazil - World Cup 2010

2010-07-03T01:03:00.002+08:00

Just saw Brazil beaten by Holland!

Sad, defeated, lost… but mostly disappointed.

Brazil has the talents but was strangely subdued in the second half.

The first half was beautiful.

The Brazilians played like world champions.

Kaka with his perfect passing and touches.

Alvez with his speed.

Robinhou with his dribbling and accuracy. (he even scored one in the first half)

But sadly, that was the only goal to show for all their possession and attacking.

Second half, they lost their direction, and they keep losing the ball to the Dutch.

Holland deserves the win because Brazil played crap in the second half.

Now, to concentrate on my second team, Argentina.

Messi and Tavez better not let me down.

Go Argentina!

LMFAO

2010-07-02T13:04:00.001+08:00

Little John was in his junior school class when the teacher asked the children what their fathers did for a living.

All the typical answers came up: fireman, policemen, salesman, politician, etc.

However, little John was being uncharacteristically quiet, and so the teacher asked him about his father.

Reluctantly he replied, “My Dad’s an exotic dancer in a gay club, and takes off all his clothes in front of other men. Sometimes, if the offer’s really good, he’ll go out with a man, rent a cheap room and let him shag him”.

The teacher hurriedly set the other children to work on some colouring and then took little John aside to ask him, “Is that really true about your father?”

“No,” said little John, “My father plays football for England, I was just too embarrassed to say that.”

At Last

2010-07-01T18:01:00.002+08:00

Yay!

June is over.

Today is the beginning of a new month.

Some say different month, same shit.

Well, in my line of work, and the way my personal life works, its never the same shit.

Life is how you make it.

Surrender yourself to a dreary existence of mind numbing proportions….. you will be a victim of your own perspective.

I choose to ignore the tiresome and live my life.

Living is not enough!

Breathing is not enough!

I choose to live my life on the edge.

I crave challenges, excitement and fun!

Screw the problems of life, it will never end.

I want to live my life the way I want to.

Crazy, idiotic, fuck up, perverse, sicko are names society call me……

Do I give a Fuck?

Hahahaahaha……………

I Am Mean

2010-06-30T18:21:00.002+08:00

Yes I know

The world is not ideal

Its cruel and unfair

We would like to believe differently but someone needs to prick your bubble

Why me?

Coz I give a shit!

Coz I care about you

You think that by saying nice things, everything will be fine?

You think by lying to you the problems will go away?

Too bad

I am in your face…..

But I am only in your face because I care

If I don’t, it means you are nothing to me

My way is not the most ideal

My way is not the only way

My way is brutal

Hence, I am only surrounded by friends who are true

Not a bunch of hypocrites life leeching problem bearing assholes

Well, if you want me to care about you, show me that you care about yourself

Living in a bubble means shit to me

You want the truth! You cant handle the truth!

Peace out!

Another Day......

2010-06-28T01:18:00.000+08:00

Here we go again.

Another day, another birthday.

I miss you very much darling.

I long to have you in my arms again.

To give you your gift and see the sparkle in your eyes.

To hear your unending questions.

Miss you lots.

Happy Birthday Sofea Jazmeen!

Your daddy will always be here for you.

*hugz*

Iphone

2010-06-27T20:05:00.002+08:00

Hahahaha…..

Iphone need a set of balls to pimp up their looks!

I am a BB user coz I need my phone to be stable and practical, and Iphone does not give me the confidence.

Its an Ipod Touch that can make calls.

Yes, I know there are more than 1 thousand applications available to Iphone but…. Do I need it?

And can Iphone handle so many applications?

From what I heard, Iphone is facing problems in that area.

I have to say Iphone is aesthetically pleasing….. its fun…. But if I want fun I’ll get a PSP.

Iphone is a toy for a young teenage girl.

Be a man, do the right thing!

Go buy a BlackBerry!

Specially For My Baby

2010-06-26T02:06:00.001+08:00

Miss my baby very much!

……………………………………………………

I Just Want To Lay Next To You
For Awhile
You Look So Beautiful Tonight
Your Eyes Are So Lovely
Your Mouth Is So Sweet
A Lot Of People
Misunderstand Me
That's Because They Don't
Know Me At All
I Just Want To Touch You
And Hold You
I Need You
God I Need You
I Love You So Much

Each Time The Wind Blows
I Hear Your Voice So
I Call Your Name . . .
Whispers At Morning
Our Love Is Dawning
Heaven's Glad You Came . . .

You Know How I Feel
This Thing Can't Go Wrong
I'm So Proud To Say
I Love You
Your Love's Got Me High
I Long To Get By
This Time Is Forever
Love Is The Answer

I Hear Your Voice Now
You Are My Choice Now
The Love You Bring
Heaven's In My Heart
At Your Call
I Hear Harps,
And Angels Sing
You Know How I Feel
This Thing Can't Go Wrong
I Can't Live My Life
Without You

I Just Can't Hold On
I Feel We Belong
My Life Ain't Worth Living
If I Can't Be With You

At Night When The
Stars Shine
I Pray In You I'll Find
A Love So True . . .

When Morning Awakes Me
Will You Come And Take Me
I'll Wait For You

You Know How I Feel
I Won't Stop Until
I Hear Your Voice Saying
"I Do"

We Can Change All The World
Tomorrow
We Can Sing Songs Of
Yesterday

I Can Say, Hey . . .Farewell
To Sorrow
This Is My Life And I,
Want To See You For Always
I Just Can't Stop Loving You